Thursday, January 24, 2008

I knew it! It was unintentional!!!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Heath Ledger dies at 28

All the drug abuse/overdose hulabaloo! Give the man some slack. We don't know yet for sure.

Heath Ledger did say he takes two but it only gave him one hour of sleep. Could it be that due to lack of sleep, and better judgment at that time, he accidentally or unmindfully took more than the safe dosage of sleeping pills? Which does make it a case of overdose but then, again, let's give the man some slack and consider what he went through which may have lead him to his death.

He has a two-year-old daughter for goodness sake!

Could the Joker character he portrayed took a heavy toll on him, emotionally and physically?

Bottom line is that he's a loss and it's a shock to know that he's already dead. (Reminded me of our local celebrity, Rico Yan, who may have died of a probably almost similar case.)

May you, Heath Ledger, rest in peace and may God bless you and take care of your daughter.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

"Isn't living life to the fullest mean making the most out of what it hands you?"

And make something to hand yourself and others too!

Now I know why my friend, Ria, loves Gilmore Girls back in college. Watched one episode and it was nice. "Isn't living life to the fullest mean making the most out of what it hands you?" or a line that sounds like that really struck me.

That will stay with me for a long long time........

I had been reading blogs again lately. Been widening my horizon some more. And along the way I felt proud, thankful, curious, sorry, envious, realistic, enlightened and felt like doing some introspection again.

I remembered our Sociology Professor, Pepin Aguilar, at the University of Santo Tomas telling us that we, being students and dependents of our parents that we were, are not the "mayaman" or the one who were rich, but our parents.

(Of course I dont belong to that category because my family's not financially "rich" per se. At that time, she was sharing how her family was ran by their Chinese father who was also a producer of movies.)

I also remembered that realities are different to each of us. More often than not also, most of us have the oportunity to make the most of what we have right now.

During my blog reading never before was I more in touch with what I want and felt like needing to uphold and give utmost importance, the almost forgotten things that I realized at a way younger age.

I still want to be the clan head.

If not the clan head, atleast to lay the foundation for something that would make me immortal.

And what would make the chances of making me immortal more probable than giving some sort of a golden parachute to every single kin for generations to come.

Non-stop booze...

Been going out atleast once or twice every week since the Christmas holiday.

Been in the Makati Central Busniess district the other night with a female friend for some drinks, just the two of us and a bucket of Red Horse. Didn't dare have another bucket... Im beginning having trouble seeing my navel when at the cubicle.

Been to Malate last night with another female friend and danced all night. I never knew Weng-Weng was great! Never mind the "sipa"! Masarap talaga!

The result: a growing beer belly and breakout everywhere!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Prior this I'd been so health conscious and all that now is down the drain.

Have to reorganize priorities and watch out during supposed Rest Days when Im most tired, but at my happiest.

Now where was that HipHop Abs video again...

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

I'll miss you 2007. Welcome 2008.

A lot of pivotal events for me happened last 2007. Many realizations and demons that I never imagined I would face. I've never been braver in facing those so-called issues that were thrown at me, either by other people or myself, than I was recently.

I have no big regrets. The regrets I have are mostly because of other people when they don't give their all and they're dealing with me, dragging me down with them.

Many lessons learned just when I thought I have nothing more to learn and no more reason to grow.

One of the things I learned is that even those people close to you, some of them that is, will judge you, stay blind, and stick to their opinion about you no matter what you do to prove them wrong.

I realized that I don't owe everybody an explanation especially when they're not willing to have an open mind to really understand. Opions matter only when you give them importance. My opinion is one of those that should matter most to myself. Just keep an open mind and be receptive to possibilities.

Found lots of new friends and finally accepted that some are just not willing to become one of those new ones. Kept that elementary school song "Make new friends but keep the old. One is silver and the other is gold" alive.

Like attracts like indeed. Will keep on repelling those that will just wear me out or drag me down.

Although I can almost give all the love in the world, there can sometimes be just enough love to pass around.

I still love books. And will continue to read them. I never thought I'll be experiencing some sort of "reading withdrawal" symptom when I dont have something to read. Hahahahah!

I miss the atmosphere of the academe. I'm still pondering on how I can be an active member of the University circle without becoming a student again or being one of the faculty. But, as they say, teaching is learning twice.

People change. Some people change fast while some change slowly. Some people change for the better while some change for the worst.

I changed fast for the better last year.

I already miss 2007...

I bought my own land. Hah! Unlike most Filipinos who grew up here in the Philippine culture center and seat of power, Manila, I always dreamed of having my own house and lot before I imagined having my own car. Now I have 4 hectares of land in the province of Isabela that already has some mango trees and a new fishpond to raise Tilapia. I do hope that the land remains mine as I still have to pay for the balance. Im on my way to financial security and freedon from the ladder of the corporate world. Well, I'm a technical support representative in a call center so I may not be "technically" in a corporate rat race but there's still rat race.

2008 will be a lucky year for those who were born under the year of the Ox. Im looking forward to more great things and events this year!