non-naïve

No. I haven't forgotten.

2011-10-15T15:32:00.003+08:00

For as long as there's the internet and I'm alive, Non-naïve, I will stay with you. :)

blog-related memories of yesteryears suddenly flood me...

I wish I can give you more time... but Im choosing to live my life the way it is right now. It might be better this way at the moment. But know that we'll always be there for each other.

Cheers! Live life.

Freedom earned and long overdue

2011-08-29T11:07:00.003+08:00

Woke up this morning and had an overwhelming sense of freedom. Freedom from not giving myself enough options to choose which career path I should follow.

Meet

2011-01-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Scarlet.

Maligayang Bagong Taon!

2010-12-31T08:45:00.001+08:00

Good morning and have a Happy New Year ahead! :D

Start saying good bye to year 2010.

I'll pretend I'm having an episode of mid-life crisis and ponder on what happened during this year, what I had given, what I took, things that I had done and things I wished I didnt do, wished I did, what I did often, places that I had been to, people I met and wished I didnt meet (if any), what I wished I could've done more often... etc etc etc.

Thank You, Lord, for this year that is about to welcome the coming new year.

Thank You for making me stronger this year. Though there may be weak moments, everything worked out well at the end of the day. Lessons were learned. Practiced what I used to preach. Stood for who and what I knew as right.

Continously learning that keeping what and who you have is harder that striving for what you used to not have.

25 years from now hopefully I'm 25 years wiser, if not more, or alive. Hahah!

I dont regret the things I did. Well, the greater majority of them. But as what the song might say, they're too few to give more attention to.

I always wanted to change my blog's years-old description but I cant get my self to do it so I'll leave it as it is for now.

When I was a way younger I said, "I'll get married at 25." I not married now. I'm still 25. I'm not single. I feel maligaya and masaya and I thank God and my most beloved, my family and friends, and my self for this.

I still plan on being sort of retired by 30. Five years to go!

More than 12 hours to go at GMT+8 before 2010 officially ends for me! :D

2010, you are a year like no other and that's what you only have in common with all the previous years. You are here now. You will be remembered.

Live!
Love life!

Now only time and the people of Burma can...

2010-11-18T12:16:00.003+08:00

Daw Aung San Suu Kyi finally had been released by the military junta.

I'm not the last person to know. I didnt learn just now. I just initially thought I shouldn't bother posting it but I'm too overwhelmed even now just thinking that she is finally free.
But is she?

I rejoice with the people of Burma with her release.

I rejoice for I live in this generation.

Can't get enough of this place

2010-11-13T13:21:00.012+08:00

Boracay weather forcasts for the next three days range between Hi:31°C and Lo:25°C. Rain or shine, here we come!!!

2010-11-04T10:37:00.000+08:00

Praying for sunshine. :D

A legitimate reason to wear leather boots...

2010-10-19T07:50:00.000+08:00

in Manila is if it's raining or a typhoon is raging.

With that said, I pray for those who lost their loved ones in this storm and may there not be another casualty (one was reported but who knows who else).

I saw a man sleeping along the road earlier. How many of them might still be sleeping along the streets of Makati and how many would wake up today. There is a woman who frequents the Ayala FGU and GT area where she sometimes sleeps every night. When will I have the courage and compassion to approach her and ask if there's something I can do to help.

I was thinking of posting something more about the coming Italian film showing at the shang this month but the above dampened my mood...

I guess, I'll do what I can do to live do what I can to help people live while I can.

Love life!

***

When you are being tentatively offered/challenged to take something that you know in your heart that you do not like and will not learn to like, even if in everybody else's eyes would be considered a promotion, will you take it? If there are no other variables to consider like urgent need for more income that would more than compensate for the reason you wouldn't take the offer under normal circumstances, being tagged an underachiever, etc, will you take it?
No.
I guess you know what you want and dont want. Good for you!

***

Thank you, Lord, for keeping my family and beloved ones safe all the time. Thank you for watching over my Mom even when she travelled home while Juan was on it's way toward the mountains in Northen Luzon. Thank you for the life that we have today. Amen.

soap and water please

2010-10-14T07:54:00.002+08:00

I will not allow work rants to contaminate this blog.
No more. That one sentence is enough.

That quote I got this morning was right, "Di ka ginising ni Lord para sumimangot."

So I'm leaving irritants where they come from. I have a life to live. :)

And so the weekend starts! Happy Thursday!

cross culture

2010-10-12T08:33:00.001+08:00

You are right, we Filipinos share something common with the Italians: Family.

kayo talaga

2010-10-12T07:03:00.002+08:00

Kayo talagang mga nasa 3/f ng isang building sa bandang dulo ng ayala ave, ke aga aga, on a weekday, wala nang piniling lugar, oras, at crowd. Anu nalang ang sasabihin ng ibang gumagamit ng banyo pagpasok. Buti kung iiling nalang sila (o magbablog tulad ko) matapos masaksihan ang inyong mating rituals kanina.
But then, to each his own. Good thing toilets are mostly not "co-ed" or else things would be a lot more "interesting."

Tayo talagang mga nagpapadala sa mga run for a cause fad. Oo nasama sa Guinness Book of World Records at oo may pondo na naman para sa ating ilog at sa isa pang mabuting proyekto, pero hangang kailan ito tatagal at gano kalaki ang impact sa improvement ng condition ng ilog. Reminds me of former first lady Ming Ramos' project. Hangggat di naisasaisip at naisasapuso, mula sa pinaka bata hanggang sa pinaka matanda, ang genuine concern sa kapaligiran, ang impact mga ganitong proyekto ay di magtatagal. Hanggat may mga industrial activity sa paligid ng ilog na di maayos mag dispose ng waste, hanggat may mga taong nakatira sa paligid ng ilog na nagtatapon ng basura dito, di rin masyadong magtatagal ang mabuting idudulot ng mga ganitong fun run. Talk about sustainable development. Talk about awareness.
Sabagay, mabuti na ang may ganito kaysa wala. Sana lang yung mga sumali, pag wala ng fun run, pag naglalakad e di tinatapon ang yosi kung saan saan at tinuturuan ang mga anak na wag basta magtapon ng kalat sa paligid.

Kayo talagang mga kaibigan ko, nagpapasalamat ako sa inyong lahat. Alam ko minsan, okay, lagi akong missing in action. Pero alam niyo naman kung bakit at dun palang nagpapasalamat na ako kasi naiintindihan niyo. At pag ako nangailangan ng company, andyan kayo agad if time permits. Lubos akong nagpapasalamat at naging magkakaibigan tayo. I'd do my best para makabawi ako kahit pano. I'd share more of my time with you guys moving forward. :)

Cheers!

Dear Blog

2010-10-08T08:15:00.002+08:00

I need the mojo that I had ages ago.
I'll find a way to get it back.

Be Thankful

2010-07-15T12:42:00.000+08:00

I remember my cousin telling me, years ago when I was a teenager, that I should be thankful for having birthdays instead of seeing it as another year of getting older.

She's right. Instead of complaining about another year that had passed or being one year older, I'm thankful for another year of being alive, another year of being with my loved ones, another year full of experience and learning and teaching and living and nurturing the life that I have.

Thank You, Lord.

***

Uncle Pop, wherever you are now, memories of you would be with us forever.

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May the loved ones left by those who died due to Basyang be consoled for their loss. I pray that our country may have better equipments to better "predict" the path that typhoons will take and their strength to avoid more casualties. May we be more proactive than reactive during the typhoon season. May the P600 million left be enough for the rest of the year, and it it's not, may they be other sources of funds to alleviate possible impacts of future disasters.

***

Cinemalaya is still ongoing. I hope I can still catch the films I planned on watching!
Mabuhay ang pelikulang Pilipino!

It's nice to know that classic Filipino films were shown in Brazil recently. :)

***

I hope that the wedding in December goes smoothly. Same goes for the trip to bora in November. Amen. :)

Bigla kong namiss ang Ifugao...

***

The culture of killing is still making itself prevalent in some parts of the country. Let's not forget what happened. Let's not be calloused by the constant news of these unacceptable acts of violence.

***

Dear blog, I feel like you had been neglected... I haven't given you much attention lately and it had been ongoing for quite a while now. But I hope you understand that during all these times when I did my best to distance my self from you, along with you brothers facebook and the like, I was able to contemplate more, FEEL more alive, and LIVE more. You are important, had always been, and I will keep you while I can still type (or until such time you are prompted by voice command or thought) and the world wide web is existing. You are remembered every time I get that impulse to document every event in my life, like that time when I learned that two of my closest friends are talking again. Those two friends of mine, with the friendship that, indirectly, blogging almost ruined. :) You see, blogs are more to people now than the web logs that they used to be when I was in High School. Blogs like you may have more untapped potential. May you be used for good as more of those potentials are discovered. :)

***

I'm craving for white sauce, oil and garlic shrimp pasta from Napoli's Timog!!! *Drools

***

Live. Love Life. :)

gag show

2010-07-08T11:31:00.002+08:00

Just watched the most disgusting, though very educational, show natgeo ever aired about forensic decomposition.

Im not squeamish. But I almost gagged.

Thank you, Lord, for the weekends.

2010-06-25T11:52:00.001+08:00

Amen. :)

Ironic

2010-06-08T13:13:00.000+08:00

Ironic that the one running for the Vice Presidency lost to someone who is Mayor of the City that his great grandfather helped become what it is today.

one running who lost = Senator Mar Roxas
mayor = Jejomar Binay
city = City of Makati
great grandfather = the late President Manuel Roxas, relative of the Ayalas, who, during his term, helped move the business district from the City of Manila to where Greenbelt is right now "dito po sa Makati"

Ironic, isn't it?

There's always a second time though, try to run for President after Noynoy's term. You have to keep an eye for Binay though, I bet he'll run for President too by then.

That's democracy in action. So whoever we are, whoever we vote or didnt vote for, let's now set aside our differences and work together and help build our country.

We all want what's best for the country, right?

I hope so. :)

2010-06-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

How are you blog? Missed me? I've been thinking of you for quite a while now. When there's the whole hoolabaloo about the supposed failure of elections. When our city's current mayor is claiming victory even before the official declaration from congress is made public. How I badly wanted anyone, just anyone, to win the vice presidency as long as it's not our current mayor. But then if he did win, it would be good for makati. I just wish he doesnt run for the highest position in the land.
I thought about you when the election was ongoing and I had to take a leave just so I wont have to work that day, thinking that no one should be made to work on election day unless you are one of those who are supposed to work even on New Year.
I thought about you when I had some time off from work and wanted to share the things I did and had fun doing. :)
Notice how the words "off" "work" and "fun" were used in a sentence. So sad isnt it. I wish I could do the things I love/d doing. If money were not an issue right now, I would have done things my way and I might be happier and probably feel a little more fulfilled right now. Probably up a mountain somewhere breathing the fesh air or giving lectures to people eager to learn more about thier culture or on a stage hearing the applause of an audience or on a beach, drunk. But then, there are several things that are the way they are because of things that happened and because of them, I wouldnt exchange the past for a different present. :)
There are many things though that I wish I've done differently, I wish I could've been more experimental, more liberal minded in my younger years particularly in college.
I wish I didnt sell myself short when I applied for a job one time.
I wish I have the time and the person to tell these to.
I do have the people but sometimes neither the time nor the chance or the moment to tell these to. Tragic that I have to resort to you, blog, to tell these. But then, in a way, it's my me time, right? Appart from the time that I spend thinking, and introspecting, and thinking some more, you, blog, give me the chance to express myself in a way different from talking to a person or talking to self kind of thing.
I thought about you when I thought of having a (drastic) change of career. But then I'd rather keep some of work thoughts off of you. I wouldnt want you to be contaminated, too much. And also, if blogs and the real world were still too much of two different worlds, I would have shared more about these so called work related thoughts. :) But those would be of more use when shared with people who are in the know of how things are in a work setting.
I miss security, response, recognition, and new experience as far as work is concerned.
I love my life. And I still want to share what is good with others.
I wish I could dance some more. I miss dancing.
I miss doing something with blind abandon.
And yes, I havent informed you yet, my hair is long now. :) It's so much longer than the hair of that long haired dude in TMZ.
I just hope it doesnt get in the way of me geting the career that I want or that's meant for me.
I wish the neighbors wont sing using the karaoke when Im around. ever.
Im happy that Noynoy, obviously, won.
Between Mar and Binay, it's makes me think about choosing between the devil that I know or the devil that I dont know.
I'm so looking forward to what we would starting July.
I dont think GMA would be held accountable though for the things people think she should be accountable to.
Thank God Im not as much of the self righteous person that I used to be.
I know that I might be prone to road rage.
I always wanted to have a business. I will have a business.
I hope to be more fit. I am fit but not fit enough right now.
I have needs. And those needs are being met. Ok let's think of other things shall we.
My head is aching. No thanks to those neighbors and their blasted karaoke.
I love reading Ambeth Ocampo. It's a breath of fresh air for me. Takes me back to those years when one is expected to be like a sponge and more.
I wish I have more time to blog.
I know that the moment I publish you, there's more that I would think I should have added or proof read for grammatical and spelling errors.
But then, que sera sera. :)
Till next time, blog. :)

Live. Love life.

Those lines feel more real now than before.

The film "Invictus" and Live A.I.D.S. of U.P.

2010-02-22T11:38:00.001+08:00

I havent seen a film for quite some time that made me think, made me feel as light hearted, and made me want to blog about.

I hope he gets to win the Oscar for his portrayal of Mandela.

I hope more Filipinos would watch the film Invictus.

I hope that the people who watched would realize and share the socio-political relevance of it especially now that we are in the campaign season.

I hope individuals who watched were not only entertained and amused by how sports have a unifying effect on peoples but also were able to see how sports, or a certain type of, particularly boxing, affect their sense of nationhood.

I hope that the people vote those who aspire to become leaders not because they are rich or supposedly pro poor, not because they have the political machinery, not because they supposedly have the blessing of heaven, or because of the legacy of their parents, or that they are experienced in politics, but because they have the right mix of character and personality to guide and lead this country.

I dont want Mandela to be my President, however, I do certainly hope to have someone like him who is legitimate and we can be proud of.

I hope for more films like Invictus.

***

I face hurt from too much laughter and constant wide smiles while watching Live A.I.D.S. at the University of the Philippines. I was great to have seen the performance this year after we ran out of tickets last year!

The lampoons were excellent! How I wish those can be shown on primetime tv!!!

Cant wait to watch Live A.I.D.S. next year! ;)

Pebrero 14, 2010

2010-02-14T08:56:00.003+08:00

Have a happy Sunday! :)

Happy Lunar New Year! ^_^

Enjoy your Valentine/s to/day! ;D

It's almost Feb...

2010-01-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

Yahoo!!! :D

2009 and 2010

2009-12-31T11:41:00.001+08:00

Today is the last day of 2009. How are you spending it? I hope this year leaves you good memories and lessons. Let's all have a happy new year ahead!

Cheers for 2010!!!

^__^

Live.

Love life.

***

My year is not yet over. Not on the lunar calendar that is.

A reason to celebrate the New Year a little earlier

2009-12-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

Lola sent us rice wine!!!

Wiiiiiiiiii!!!

^______________^

First Two Manila Film Festival 2009 Movies Watched

2009-12-27T12:22:00.001+08:00

*some spoilers alert!*

Mano Po:

The movie was, for me, ok. It was fine. One line stood out and struck me because it's something I told myself years back. :)

(Guys, sa dvd niyo nalang siguro panoorin pag lumabas na sa video city. :) ) If a Sharonian happens to read this: sana dumami pa kayo sa sinehan kasi ang onti ng nanuod. :p

Para akong nanood ng movie na madaming artistang nilagay basta mailagay lang din.

All in all, the movie wasn't too bad.

Panday:

Think LOTR, the Joker of the Dark Knight, Okay ka Fairy ko the movie, and Conan the Barbarian (the animated series' last two episodes) all rolled into one. Only the movie could have been much better.

The trailer made me hope for better things like grander fight scenes atleast.

My friend did comment about the villages about how they looked almost realistic. As for how Rhian Ramos became a sword carrying sidekick in 24 hrs without proper training, as shown in the movie, me and my friend can't quite grasp how it would have been possible for a village girl to evolve into such.

Minor characters died just to show how unforgiving a vilain could be. And the end part... G*d forbid a part 2 if it cant meet people's expectations. But who am I to represent "people's" expectations anyway.

A few minutes into the movie, just when the protagonist was reminiscing how his village was attacked and his parents were killed, a very bright light was coming from the back and is being directed at the screen before us. Annoyed, we searched for the source and saw that the light was from a camera and beside of it was Ramon "Bong" Revilla, waving and beaming at the audience.

Now where is respect there. I know this is a movie where you, the actor, is the bida. But we are the audience watching it. And at that time the film had to be stopped just so you can show your appreciation for us watching the movie. That should have been done during the trailers before or after the movie.

That's the very reason why me and another friend tore our premier tickets to bits, with much gusto, relief and pleasure, after waiting for more than one hour and fifteen minutes past the supposed start of Shake Rattle and Roll because the other main sta... characters still havent arrived the venue and we were not being allowed to enter unless they arrive. (mga paimportaneng leche)
I can still remember what I told my friend then, "I never knew doing this would be such a relief!"

A few minutes before the supposed start of the film, there was a man who approached us and asked if we want to sell our tickets. I then, jokingly of course, told my friend more than an hour later that had we offered the tickets for 500 pesos each, we would have made a profit from the free tickets and had given one possible movie pirate a chance to record the movie.

***

I dont plan on watching Wapakman bec Ms Ranillo is there. Hmm... How about the Comedy King's movie... nah. hmm... Gabi's come back movie... what other MMFF movies to watch... any art film worth watching?

To the one who knocked down the Pope

2009-12-26T10:14:00.000+08:00

You should be thankful it's the year 2009.

Had it been during the Inquisition, may God have mercy on you, that is if you're not declared excomunicado and burned alive at the stake.

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Had it been the late beloved Pope John Paul II, I would have been immensely angry. Yesterday I just found my left hand form a tight fist while watching the footage again and again on BBC.

Pasalamat siya at hindi isang spiritual leader ng ibang relihiyon o political strongman sa Maguindanao o Benguet ang tinumba niya kung di bitay ang parusa sa kanya.

That incident, hopefully, would make the Vatican security ever more vigilant. We dont want another tackling or, mush less, a shooting incident to take place like what happened to the previous Popes.

May the badly injured French Cardinal recover.

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Haaay.

On a lighter note. It's a weekend! :)

Happy weekend!

Pacem in terris.

Maligayang Pasko sa Inyong Lahat!

2009-12-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

Nawa'y ang inyong pasko ay di lang magtagal mamaya o hangang bukas. Nawa'y ang inyong Pasko ay maging araw-araw. :)

***

I finally succeeded in convincing Mom to watch the Avatar in 3D. Hah! Thank's bro for going with Mom! :) I'm slightly sorry because I watched it first. Well, atleast I was able to convince Mom to watch it with my enthusiasm. :D

I wish everyone gets to watch the movie Avatar

2009-12-22T13:05:00.001+08:00

I wish everyone gets to watch the Avatar in 3D.
The beauty and message of the movie is simply profound. One may think of its story as timely and somewhat socially and politically relevant. The thoughts and intentions behind the characters' actions, the clash of cultures protrayed, the wonders and horrors that technology and nature may bring, the possibility of becoming the best or the worst of one's self - these and more in one movie that was reportedly 14 years in the making with an estimated $400M production cost.
I cant wait to see the day when I can watch this movie again and again and share it with other people at home with our very own 3D glasses.

http://www.avatarmovie.com/

Aaaah... Just watching that trailer gives me the good great goosebumps again.

Will not stop convincing my Mom until she considers watching it!

A visit of places I used to frequent in old Manila

2009-12-07T13:46:00.000+08:00

I was on my 4th day of a week long vacation with nothing to do and almost out of my wits. Malls and the usual hangouts are just nearby but unappealing... what can I possibly do in day when I have no one to go out with and it's last working day of the week...

Well... why not ride the a boat and go to Manila!

But first, let's visit the nearby town of Pateros.

The ever so busy road and the church tower under renovation:

Back to Makati in Guadalupe where the boat going to Quiapo, Manila is docked

(isa po ito sa mga mukha ng Makati nga pala)

And off we go to Manila!

I think I rode the ferry via the Pasig river only twice when I was a kid and I was with my Mom. The boats weren't air conditioned then.

When I knew we were at the Palace of Malacañan area, where taking pictures is not allowed for security reasons, I just took a picture of this life vest. (taking a pic of the palace was too tempting but even when one of the ferry's crew walked away and I had my chance, I still didnt take a pic. :D )

Welcome to the city of Manila!

Quiapo church and Plaza Miranda:

Home of my Mom's favorite siopao, Ma Mon Luk:

And back to my alma mater. :)

The square that used to be Tinoco Park:

ice cream anyone?

my favorite tree in the campus:

within the Central Seminary

The brighter and now more park-like Lover's Lane

How I miss the campus as a student

I was planning on going to Binondo and Intramuros but found myself done for the day and went home already planning for my next visit to another part of the old city.

Cheers!

Love life.

Blog Template Update before 2009 ends

2009-12-07T12:03:00.001+08:00

Finally came about updating the blog template after years of leaving it as it is... and being the sentimental person that I am, I'll just save the years old blog description here before I make an updated one. :D

"M,22, Journalism graduate, half Ifugao+half Chavacano=a proud pure-blood multi-racial Filipino, dreamer, foreseer, driven, a civilian social analyst, loves people, sunrise and sunsets, the Moon, multi-forked lightnings that dont touch down, likes excellent man-made objects, appreciates beauty in its different forms, happy-go-lucky-serious-type-of-guy, a conservative, liberal minded, free-thinking, bachelor"

December 1, 2009

2009-12-01T11:50:00.001+08:00

December 1, 2009 is very thankful for November 9, 2008.

If not for November 9, 2008, then December 1, 2008 would never have materialized.

I love this day... and more.

Imbug ta December 1 ud uguni. Igkhuy o tinnig chin phulan ju hini chugo un lute hichi ngato pati hini inat cho un rupa ngam uchi mulichuwon hinuy un mudhum. :)

Salamat sa Diyos at may alam akong ibang salita na iilan ang nakakaalam.

Happy December 1! ^__^

Almost everyday I think about you...

2009-10-16T07:45:00.004+08:00

When I had a massage

Everytime I finish watching good/great/bad/terrible movies during the weekends for the past months

When I went to this bar for the first time and it felt like a playground for people my age

Everytime I sleep at our friend's house after pigging out all day

When I tried fb

When tried this great food for the first time

When one elevator smelled Sykes Asia

When I finally had my back pay from Thomson-Reuters and contemplated on how to spend/save it

When I received another check

When Ondoy hit my city, devastated and hurt people I personally knew (and brought out heroes we havent seen among us for quite some time)

When Pepeng killed many and greatly affected not only CAR

When the great Corazon died and how I have, for many reasons not exclusive to myself, fought back tears when I ate breakfast at the Makati Medical Center and at times when, still to this day, I see yellow ribbons around

When I rejoiced at the thought of this country having an alternative to who were already there

When I was laughing while reading Lourd's Shut Up Little Sister

When that Chanel pearl earring caught not only attention

When I tried to decide who to approve/add/ignore in fb

When I worried what if my blog would finally be closed

When I imagined how would it be like if I chronicle ever thought, idea, and quote I deem important and probably helpful in one way or another to people in the future

When I miss Ifugao and feel like posting topics exclusively about Ifugao

When I think about tracing back the family tree

When I realize how people and loved ones have changed as time goes by

When I think about immortality

When I think about fatality

When I think about how the storms, death/s, floods, relief goods, elections, privatization of government shares/properties, etc, will affect the people of the Republic of the Philippines' decision come election day and the weeks following

When I think about my loved ones' future

When I think about how I can probably live my life differently when it comes to earning a living and spending and when I imagine giving whoever I want their own golden parachute

When I contemplate or have contemplated about almost anything...

I think about you, my blog.

And I think some more.

(10/16/2009 8:43 am GMT+8)

Me and the Pink Cake

2009-07-12T02:24:00.001+08:00

In progress...

Steadfast

2009-07-03T10:25:00.005+08:00

President Corazon Aquino is two floors up from where Im typing this down.

I give my prayers of healing for my most beloved ones who are battling physical ailments right now. I wish I can say who you are and how much I hope and pray for your healing, my beloved ones, but I dont have the liberty to do so here.

--- This post was made 7 days ago when a good friend had an operation because of *BLEEP*. Two of my beloved ones are still going through their own personal ordeal, just like the former President.

I sincerely pray for your recovery.

Earlier's Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

2009-06-27T17:49:00.005+08:00

Metal gore and robot wars...

(The next best pics to one of my fave scenes)

DELICIOUS!!!

Too bad all today's slots in IMAX were booked. We didnt bother to ask if tomorrow may have free slots nor the following days. We can't wait anymore. The conventional screen may not be as great but it doesn't matter, what made the experience great was the 2.5 hour movie itself and the presence of friends. :)

Part 1 had a permanent impact on me especially when I saw them transforming before my eyes for the first time, like watching Astroboy the movie when my first memory of anime is Astroboy. Part 2 reinforced that moment and it even made me see how my friend experienced something similar when he saw the Constructicons transforming. :D

And of course her royal hotness is smoking as ever. But none in the scenes earlier outdid that car repair portion of part 1.

One other thing, Revenge of the Fallen had more humor in it. :D

Yey! Transformers earlier, now waiting for a friend's Pochero to get cooked in another freind's house before probably going out later for this Saturday night. :D

Ahoo! Ahoo!

May you Rest in Peace, Michael.

2009-06-26T12:26:00.009+08:00

Madonna cried when she learned. My friend almost cried.

As for me, I was in shock when I read the news in Yahoo this morning 15 minutes after it was published by the AP.

It was surreal. Something that one normally wouldn't have thought or imagine might happen today. Much like the same feeling when Rico Yan died during Holy Week of that year. There was a beautiful golden full moon the night prior.

Is Madonna the last of their kind, their caliber, their iconic stature, still alive today?

It was just earlier this week when I was reminded of him and his Neverland when the convicted Jalosjos' profile and his "theme park" was shown on tv by Ms Lazaro. (It goes without saying the similarities and differences of the two.)

My condolences the loved ones of Michael Jackson.

Just right now, while typing these, I asked my closest friend for the youtube link so I can also listen to what made those tears almost fall again. Childhood

There's only one thing I don't like in all of these, people/media remembered someone like him, became nostalgic of his golden years, now that he's dead. It's the same when a loved one dies. People did love MJ. People may remember him now by many things he did and allegedly did and did not do. People will miss the one and only Michael Jackson.

F*ck this is so unbelievable.

I told myself I wont post unless I really really feel the mood to post. I guess this one event today is one reason to blog.

***

I wished to post a lot other more personal events but then they didn't get published. Not even digitally drafted. Nonetheless, those events are stored and relived in the most important places in existence, in my heart, mind, and soul.

Hay... basta masarap ang mabuhay. Lalo na ngayon. At kung di mo to naiintindihan, better ask someone who can translate it for you.

Thank you, Lord, for life and the experiences. Thank You more for our beloved people you have allowed us to share our life with.

Live life now. :)

Enjoy!

A Very Boring Sunday... Not!!!

2009-06-15T13:19:00.005+08:00

They say pictures say a thousand words... so let the pictures do more of the talking:

Burp!!!

Auf Wiedersehen...

2009-06-15T13:15:00.001+08:00

That might be what Heidi says to evicted designers for Project Runway, however, on this post, it's not about PR or designers but about the concert of the Novo Concertante Manila at the Philam Life held last Saturday evening.

The singers are bound for Europe to compete in Austria and in Spain and they need our support. The concert held was actually also a fund raiser for the group.

I wish I was able to extend more than just well wishes and moral support, i.e., in cash and in kind.

Happy 111th Birthday our Republic of the Philippines!!!

2009-06-12T13:45:00.003+08:00

What better way to start blogging again than to begin with our 111^th anniversary of Celebration of the Declaration of Independence!

It is because we are a free country that we are able to do this:

This is one of the pictures I took during the anti-constitutional assembly rally held outside our office last Tuesday.

It is also because we are free that I can blog my brains out without fear of censorship or curtailment of my basic human right to self expression like they do in one of our neighbors, the Peoples Republic of China.

That and a whole lot more other rights that most of us take for granted, like the right to vote, just to state one example.

Sadly though, we also tend to abuse these rights that we have. Need to mention more about the "Hayden film festival?" Nah. How sad that we don't put our privileges to good use, instead of focusing too much on the gross showbiz side, we didn't do much about recognizing our very own who won best director in the 2009 Cannes Film fest, Brillante 'Dante' Mendoza, for his work, Kinatay.

How I wish I can say more right now about how I think or feel about how we use, omit, misuse, or abuse our rights as free Filipinos but I still need to go to work. Yeah, work on one of our most important national holidays. Tragic.

On a more personal note, today also marks my 3rd year of officially being part of the Filipino working class. It had been in June 12, 2006 that I ended my 2-month bumhood and started working. Whoa...

Live life!

Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao won again!!!

2009-05-03T11:52:00.002+08:00

WAHOOO!!!!

Thank God for the internet!

http://www.justin.tv/pinoytees

Wahoo!!!

I am...

2009-05-03T04:15:00.001+08:00

BIRDIESAURUS NYOMNYOM!!!
.
WAHAHAHAHAHA!

Thank God my blog's still not inactive.

Feel so loved. ;)

EHeads Concert...

2009-03-07T18:00:00.002+08:00

The EHeads concert later hopefully doesnt become too much an ode for the great Francis M.

Okay they're now shouting at me to post this so we can go to the Mall of Asia now!!!!!!!!!!

I am overwhelmed...

2009-03-06T15:56:00.002+08:00

I am overwhelmed with gratitude and great love that it made me cry like there's no tomorrow.

Why it's great to have a drink with bosses?

2008-11-14T07:00:00.000+08:00

Im going to start this post with the Language I love the most: Tagalog, a.k.a. Filipino
My 2nd language will come next. Oh no. Make that 3rd. Ifugao is my 2nd. I think.

Masarap makipag inuman sa supervisor at sa manager ng kayong 3 lang kasi madaming nalalaman: Bakit nga ba ganito ang mga nangyayari sa opisina, bakit ganito ang pamamalakad, bakit ganito ang trato sa mga indibidwal na kasama sa trabaho at marami pang iba.

(Hindi pa sana halata na nakainom ako habang tynatype ito. [shyet. Nakakailang backspace na nga ba ako? E 2nd paragraph palang ito.])

Siguro hindi naman lahat e kasing swerte ko para makainuman ang manager niya at ang supervisor niya… yung tipong kayong 3 lang… yung tipong parang nakaraang Martes lang e kayo ng supervisor mo naman ang magkainuman. Sabagay. Mapagkakatiwalaan naman ako. At kahit eto ako ngayong nakainom at nagbablog at nagtatype ng pahirapan e hindi parin isheshare sa buong mundo ang mga bagay bagay na napgusapan. Puputulin ko muna ang hinlalaki ko sa kanang kamay bago ko isiwalat ang mga bagay-bagay nang walang pahintulot ng (Shyet muntik ko na maipost ang number dito) tao.

Tangina talaga. Kung alam lang ng buong kumpanya kung gaano kalaki ang naiaambag ng supervisor ko at ng manager namin sa pandaigdigang kumpanyang ito. Kung alam lang nilang lahat! Hindi makakatayo ng maayos ang kumpanyang to ng ilang taon kung di lang sa kanilang 2! Lalong lalo na sa supervisor ko. At eto kayo na walang ginawa kundi ang sirain sila. Oo. Kayong mga gustong sumira sa supervisor ko, alam kong may mga gusto kayong protektahan at pangalagaan sa kumpanya. Naiintindihan ko iyon. Wala naman siguro kayong ninaiis, higit sa lahat, kundi ang ikakabubuti ng kumpanya. Dahil sino din naman ang makikinabang kundi tayong lahat. Pero naman. Ilang taon na kayong magkakasama. Pakiusap naman. Umayos kayo. Tayo tayo na nga ang andito e. Wala naman gustong humila pababa ng kumpanya kaya sana wag naman tayo magkalat ng ikasasama ng loob ng isa’t isa. Lalo na ng mga kapwa nating may malakas na boses sa kumpanya. Dahil sabihin man nating propesyonal tayo, sa huli e malakas parin ang nagagawa ng damdamin para sa isa’t-isa.

Sa madaling salita: kung ikaw ay nasa isang kumpanya kung saan ang mga tao ay magkakakakilala, magakakasama, at nagkakahalubilo na ng medyo matagal, mas mabuti na ang harapin niyo ang mga isyu na parang lahat kayo ay edukado at marunong makipagkapwa tao. Hindi yung… alam mo na. Nakakababang tignan kung kumilos. Pwe.

Para sa isang taong tulad ko na magaling magobserba ng mga tao, nakakatuwa/tawa/lungkot obserbahan ang mga nangyayari. Yung tipong maiisip mo: "anu ba. Highschool?! Parang hindi tamanda a! E napagdaanan ko na yan ilang taon na ang nakalipas a. Bakit tong mga to e naiwan ata sa pagkabata?!" Immature kung baga.

Sabagay. Hindi naman nasusukat sa edad ang pagtanda. [Wala sigurong saktong katumbas na salita sa Pilipino ang maturity kaya pagtanda ang ginamit ko.]

It’s all a mater of maturity.

(At dito nagtatapos ang kwento tungkol sa ibang tao. Balik sa sarili ko naman)

Tulad ko, kahit medyo nakaramdam ng sama ng loob sa ilang "nakilala," yung tipong hindi mo man pinakita masyado na nagke-care ka e nakaramdam ng ng onting kurot nung sobrang nagiba na ang trato sayo, e hindi mo parin magawang patulan ang pagkamusmos ng pagiisip ng ibang tao.

Tulad ng palaka at ng alakdan. Noong tinulungan ang palaka ang alakdan mula sa pagkakalunod e nilason parin ng alakdan ang palaka. Bakit? Kasi nasanature ng alakdan ang manlason.

Parang tao. Nasa nature ng indibidwal na tao yan e.

Wala kasi sa nature ko ang maging mapaghiganti. Kaya…

Kahit alam mo na halos buong history ng buhay ng isang tao, kung bakit siguro ganun siya sa mundo at sa ibang tao na akala niya ay nakakababa sa kanya, kung alam mo din ang pangalan ng mga mahal niya sa buhay, kung sino malamang ang pinaka ayaw niyang miyembro ng pamilya niya, at marami pang iba na naibahagi ng pinakamamahal niyang kakilala, at dahil napaka galing mong magdeduce, mga impormasyon na kung sa ibang tao mapupunta e tiyak na magagamit para lang gawan ng hindi maganda ang (mga?) taong iyon, hindi mo parin magagawang sirain ang taong (di) nabangit DAHIL wala sa nature mo ang manira at maghiganti(?). Sa kabila ng lahat, hinayaan mo nalang matuwa siya sa sarili niyang kahunghangan. Bakit? Sabi nga nila sa ingles: because you know better. At sa huli mahihiya ka nalang sa sarili mo kung papatol ka pa at magpapakababa para lang maramdaman na nakaganti ka.

(eto na naman ako at nagpapakavague para lang protektahan ang MGA taong hindi justified ang ginawang trato sa akin. Hindi dahil sa takot na gantihan ka dahil kahit papaano ay noog mga panahong hawak niyo pa ang tiwala ng isa’t isa at may ilan ka ding naibahagi na maaring gamitin laban sa iyo ngayon, kundi dahil wala sa nature mo ang maging ganon. Sabagay sa huling bahagi ng pakikipagtalastasan sa (mga?) (di) nabangit na tao ay nakahingi naman ako ng dispensa sa hindi ko mabuting inasal pero sa huli alam mo parin na kahit sa normal na sitwasyon ay masasabing hindi ako ang naging out of proportion ang naging reaksiyon sa mga bagay na di pinagkauanawaan.)

Vague. Vague. Vague.

Effort pala ang mag blog ng sapilitang diretsong tagalog. Shyet. May araw na. Pasado 6:20 na sa relo ko at wala pa akong tulog. Tsaka nalang ako magtatransalate sa ingles ng mga nabangit.

Sarap pala mag blog ng halos wala kang hino-hold back lalo na at kakagaling lang sa munting inuman. Pucha. Kung masasabi mo lang ang mga bagay bagay tulad ng billboard ng *BLEEP*, pangalan ng hotel sa *BLEEP*, probinsya sa Visayas, pangalan ng beast of burden, yung tipong the kind of secret so juicy you just cant keep to yourself… But then it’s not in my nature. At the end of the day, the bastards can be rest assured that their secrets’ are safe with me because it’s not in my nature to divulge their blahs. Parang sa Legally Blonde: It’s not my alibi to tell. :)

Pero sa lahat ng ito, nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos at napagdaanan o pinagdadaanan ko din, pulitika man sa opisina o di pagakakunawaan sa pagitan ng mga ko-bloggers, chatmates, kaklase, kaibigan, acquaintance, digital acquaintance, dahil kahit papaano ay masasabi kong ang mga ito’y nakakatulong sa patuloy kong pagunlad bilang tao.

Siguro ang masaklap lang ay bakit kailanganing makahalubilo ang mga ganitong uri ng tao…. Haaaay… para lang maging mas malawak ang panguunawa???

God, these people you let me meet, in real life or otherwise, who still affects my life no matter how great or minute, I hope they are part of Your plan to make me better.
Parang yung linya lang ni Og Mandino na: Everyday in every way, I’m getting better and better.

And so another somewhat not so cohesive post had been born… out of alcohol and angst towards people whom I thought should be more mature than I should be. Shyet sarap. Ilang taon na ako at nakakramdam parin ako ng angst. Trully, Yourkidatheart.

God, why do you make it so hard for me to meet someone like me. No! Not someone IDENTICAL but at least someone who belongs in my level, my caliber.

Andyan yung ka-edad ko at ka-level ko intellectually pero hindi emotionally. Yung tipong nada EQ. Andyan yung mas matanda sa akin at kalevel ko emotionally pero yun a nga, mas matanda sakin at hindi namam makarelate sa mga gusto ko sa edad kong ito. Ilang bilyon din kaming tao dito sa Earth, there must be someone out there who could satisfy me. :)

Sana lang maitranslate ko ito sa ingles. Hahahahah!

Live! Love life. :)

Barack Obama, the first African-American US President

2008-11-05T16:29:00.000+08:00

I turned on the TV and then I heard the cheers before I realized what people were cheering about.

(And oh yeah, I retract what I sent via text (brigade) message: Obama's not Muslim. His father is. Not that that matters, really.)

Some mixed reactions from people I texted when I spread the news:

"Talaga? Nagbotohan na?"

"Talaga? Salamat sa balita."

"Celebrate!"

"Is this true?"

"I know right"

So how will this affect:

those in Kenya?

How about those in South Africa?

The starving children in the Afican continent? (Where is the biggest diamond mine again?)

Let me hear... Indonesia? China? Japan? North and South Korea? Russia?

The E.U.?

Slovenia? (joke)

the neighbor/relative who's applying for a US visa? (Hahahahaha!)

Middle East Asia? (Let me hear Israel)

How about Darfur? Oh yeah that's in Africa also.

The BPO industry? (Think call centers here in the Philippines and in India)

Anyways! Four states havent declared who won in their state yet, as per CNN a few minutes ago.

Those news channels havent got more audience since Pope John Paul II's demise and Pope Benedict XVI's election, right? (Oh yeah. There was the supposed US recession.)

There's going to be a wave of blue in the Washington by January next year.

Wow... the dynamics of politics...

Im wearing blue on my way to work now.

^_^

At the end of the day... whatever happens somewhere, whatever someone says... will ultimately affect someone else somewhere else.

Yun DOW ba yun?

2008-10-29T15:13:00.002+08:00

I was channel surfing at 3 am GMT+8 then I came upon CNBC and they were having some sort of a count down then they had the sound of bells in the back ground with this on the screen:

INDU +889.35
INDP 9065.12

Bloomberg channel was on the same.

Do I still hear recession? Huh? Huh?

Let's wait and see.

(Siyempre di ako magkukunwari na alam ko ang lahat ng napanood ko sa dalawang istasyong nabangit. Pero di rin naman ako magkukunwari na di ko alam ang mga nangyayari. ;-) )

Yehey. Sana ibigsabihin nito wala na kaming kliyenteng mababangkarote in the near future.

About blogs and other things

2008-10-17T06:46:00.001+08:00

First or all, I’d like to thank Blogger for keeping may four year old baby alive despite my "neglect."

Okay. Now that’s out of the way. Let me start my talking about me, myself, and I. Oh yeah. Nah. Let me get off the whole "life lessons" (you know, all that appreciate life, live for the moment, like it’s the last day of your life, stuff) and share some little things, in a sentence(?) or two(?) about the blogs I just browsed/read/digested(?).

blogberrymom. Although her last post was last June, her blog always gives that "Aw how nice." Sweet, doting, expression on your face. Reminds you of how childhood should be: sweet, warm, and fuzzy-feeling inducing.

Bryan Boy… Hmm. Need I say more.

4ever7. My friend from *BLEEP.* All his games and all! Keep posting! Enjoy blogging dude!

Benz, I would appreciate an update sana. :)

Jake’s blog, interesting posts as always, had the most important person in his life mentioned, as always. Made me smile, at the least, as always.

Bajie… how to describe his blog…. Hmmm… a person once asked, "how will you describe Bajie?" I said, "I dunno. Bajie is Bajie." Maybe just like his blog: Bajie’s blog is Bajie’s blog (and more).

SalingPusa’s blog. Wow. All the pics and vids and posts on all things and all that. I admire the nationalistic colors! As I do for the other bloggerss here who have the same hue.

bisean. Of course this blog, as always, had something new and interesting probably just for anyone living in this, and the other, side of the world.

RONeiluke’s blog. Wow. Dark… artistic. Inclined towards what you’d readily think as "emo(?)"… with the background music from Schindler’s List. Gawd! Ambigat chong! Makes me wanna sing "Makulay ang buhay!" while reading all the posts. I hope Im not sending the wrong message, and if I did, let me say, maganda ang posts, kailangan nga lang ihanda ang sarili. :)

The new link of Saudi Jeans. How to describe this blog that I havent linked (yet) to my blog list… Had visited the link again after months of forgeting to pass by it… I guess it’s how a true Philippine-loving Filipino would blog if he were a Muslim and an Arab from the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia. Gets mo ibig ko sabihin pag pinuntahan mo din yung dating link niya: http://saudijeans.blogspot.com/

Oops! Text message… 6:27 am now. How time flies. Had Mom not texted I would have forgotten I’m off to the north today. Joke. (North, a.k.a. the northen part of Luzon, the land of the Ilocanos, Ifugaos, Igorots, i… i… all the peoples of the north. Today,a.k.a., right now.)

Visited more blogs today, after months(?!?!?!?!) of not reading blogs and living life.

Oh yeah. I suddenly remembered what a new friend told me one time: "digital karma." wahahahahah! You know, *BLEEP*, in the remote possibility of you reading this blog of mine, you know what I mean.

Also why do people hate Jenny Humphrey? (I dont care if I spelled her last name wrong.) I know she's a social climber and that she may not be as attractive as Blair but she's also there in the story to make it a little bit more interesting, and probably annoying. Haaay... Reminded me how puzzling it is for people to hate Cueshe when they were being given exposure years ago... hhmmm... Anyways!

So before I go I wanna share this link about what some claimed to be "Surprising Signs You'll Live Longer Than You Think"

http://health.msn.com/womens-health/slideshow.aspx?cp-documentid=100216496&imageindex=1

Let me also say I hate divorce… But if it’s better than having to live miserably, then so be it. Good luck to Madonna and Guy.

And for people my generation who appreciated Britney Spears when she was just starting… AREN'T WE GLAD OUR BABY'S BACK? ;) http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=1-23EToh43M

On Blogging, Death and Dying, The Joys of Walking, and Living Life

2008-08-28T05:15:00.003+08:00

*edited*

On Blogging

Although there never was a day or night that I haven’t thought of blogging, why do I keep myself from doing it. Maybe because I keep on wanting to blog at the right time. At that exact moment when I feel like, this is it, Im going to blog right now.

And for the first time, instead of starting with viewing blog posts, comments, and websites I missed or haven’t had the time to visit, I start with typing this down, these thoughts, that I had been playing in my head for the past weeks since I last visited my own blog.

So on blogging… this post will probably be more of I/me/myself/egocentric-sort-post… there had been times when I was so tempted to post something, anything, but I held back telling myself no this is not the right time, no this is not yet the moment to post something about your simple joy of walking, no you shouldn’t post something again when you are drunk/tipsy though you still can check grammar and spelling (never mind the F word and all other cuss terms that alcohol inspires), no you shouldn’t blog yet just because you want to, you blog when you know it’s the right time to blog.

The more kinds of blog I see, the more I get reminded of "blogging for blogging’s sake…" I have nothing against earning while blogging or celebrities blogging just so it can probably boost popularity but yeah it just reminds me of blogging for blogging’s sake… which reminds me of a college friend who started blogging when she was, according to her, in First Year High School, at a time when her peers were being taught Lotus 123, peers like myself who had never heard of "blog" at 13. This friend I mentioned is Abby and her link is somewhere in this blog. I havent checked if this link is active at present because like I said oh just go to paragraph 2.

Blogging had brough her to places, literally, and now she’s BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP because of blogging. Abby if you see this, don’t kill me because I hadn’t really said anything bad, had I? *wink*

Ah yeah… Maybe I’ll open my blog just so I can link her site to her name when I feel that I’m finished with this post.

Hmmm I wonder what happened to that Saudi national who was incarcerated because he blogged something "against" Islamic dogma or muslim way of life. I read that months ago in the Saudi Jeans blog. I’ll also check that link later.

And yeah! The counter/site meter. Hmm… should I or should I not put one. Nah. I never started with one so why bother.

Oh thank God this crossed my mind right now:

What if one day blogging, electricity, or anything digital or otherwise that gives blogs hope for immortality become obsolete? Will it then make blogs, old websites, go poof? Hmmmm… Not every personallity during the first Chinese Emperor’s time is remembered today. Not everyone has a family tree that can be traced back like the descendants of Confucius today or the Japanese imperial house. I don’t even know (or haven’t yet bothered to know) who is my ancestor more than four generations back. Well at least I met my maternal grandmother’s grandmother when I was a kid. Did people who drew in caves thought that what they drew would be seen by us today, thousands (millions?) of years in the future? I do wish/hope blogs or anything of the like would give someone like me, "an ordinary person," who haven’t killed/fed/saved/taught/inspired/angered/terrorized/robbed/
cheated/lead/mislead/etc hundreds/thousands/millions/billions of people, a chance of immortality long after my lungs gave their final breath.

Death and Dying

One of the most beautiful, youngest, ladies in our company died this month.

She’s one of the last people on earth you would imagine dying at her age on an ordinary day.

She had, probably her worst and definitely her last, asthma attack one night. She was on coma for two days, she gained consciousness for some time before she finally succumbed to the inevitable. I think it was a two-week struggle. She was 28.

I had a little crush on her. She already had a husband and a 3 year-old son but if you meet her for the first time and not know her background, you would probably think she just graduated in High School.

On that day at work when we learned she gained consciousness, I left her a YM saying, "I look forward to that day when you read and reply to this."

The Manila team gave their prayers and held Mass while she was in the hospital.

The last Friday when she was with us, I remember seeing her walking around, probably extra cheery to everyone, she even went to our area asking our manager to embrace her because she misses her. Asking about their plans for Baguio.

We went to her wake after work. Me and two of my team mates met her husband and parents for the first time. Her husband shared to us how on her last week at work, she went on leave that Thursday because she wanted to be with her family, how they both had their date after a long time since their last one, how they met again after being schoolmates in High School and ended up becoming married to each other for three years.

How I wish (or someday maybe hope) I can feel comfortable posting the collage I made days after we learned she died. It’s a little tribute I made in memory of her. I made it at work. Her pictures during company activities etc. I have it in my email right now but no… I don’t know if I should post it here now.

*edited: my tribute to Jam now included*
*I'd now want to remind myself that in no way am I giving more weight to one's death over another by making and finally posting a collage, knowing so painfully well how to lose a loved one.*

Her death made the words "seize the moment" and "live life to the fullest" more popular in the office. Sometimes I thought, and I don’t wish to sound cynical, "Yeah. Right. Easier said than done though."

One of my friends at work told me she wishes to die before her parents pass away. I told her, as I have told my male HS friend years ago, "it would be unfair for your parents. They probably went through the pain of seeing their parents go. It would be too much if they see you go too before their time comes."

Reminded me of what I read somewhere… about Jews… sons bury their fathers. So when a son died, one father said, parents should never bury their children. Ah. I think it was from news, CNN maybe, about Israel. Im not so sure anymore. Could be about the Holocaust. Nah. Probabaly from tv news.

I used to wish to die when Im at my peak. No illness or physical impairments. Just perfectly healthy. Hmmm… But I don’t also want to die in any kind of accident too. So how to die at your peak. Anyways… from wishing to die young, I then went back to my wish of dying at an old age. When I was little I wished of dying probably around or after 100 years old. Then later, it became more, lets say, more detailed, I imagined myself with white hair. Just that proud crown of white as proof of the years/decades passed.

Then there are times when I imagine what if physical immortality become medically possible for humans during my time and it’s available to me… I’ll probably take it… so long as I don’t age a day and my faculties remain sharp, forever, until probably when I decide to end it all just like the founder of Kodak.

The Joys of Walking

I love to walk. It’s probably something I acquired during college. And one time (yup Im starting my sentence with "and") And one time when I was walking along Ayala Avenue on my way to the office, I thought about blogging and I though about blogging my joy of walking.

Walking gives me a sense of calm.
It makes/helps me think.
It helps me have find my center.
No need to mention it’s a simple effortless form of exercise, except probably if your obese. (I used to be fat so I’m in no way fat-insensitive.)

And during that time I also thought how lucky I am to be born the way I am and to be in the circumstances that am in right now.

(These things coming up were thought during or results of that walk.)

I’m thankful that I don’t have to be bound by strict rules, religious, medical, or social, on how to live my life.

Like rules on what clothes to wear. I don’t have to cover my face and leave only my eyes exposed to the world. I don’t have to cover my whole body just in case I want to swim in the sea or in a pool or if I wanted to be a lifeguard in Australia. (I don’t mean to offend anyone who might get offended. I’m just saying it as it is.) Though it might sometimes be fun to have a yellow day during Mondays like they do it in Thailand in honor of their beloved king or maybe red days on Mondays for good luck like some people I know. I love wearing red on Mondays also or any day actually.

Thank God I can eat anything edible because I don’t have allergic reaction to any sort of food. I can eat all sorts of meat and not only chicken because I’m not forbidden from eating either beef or pork. Ok, I only have my allergic reaction triggered when I eat eggs or poultry for several days in a row and that was when I was a kid. I don’t remember having another allergic reaction to anything since then. Maybe I can experiment and try eating poultry and eggs for several days in a row…

Good thing I’m not a picky eater. I love veggies and fruits. Though probably I’ll never eat dog meat again. I know it tastes good and it gives you that hot feeling, anyone who had tried it knows this to be true, but in honor of the pet dogs my family ever had, and all dogs everywhere, I’ll do my best not to taste dog meat again. What I haven’t tried also yet is turtle and I don’t think I’ll try that not only because we have had pet turtles before but I just think they should be eaten… Unless you’re living in a jungle and it’s a matter of survival. I may try another serving of shark meat though. Like the one I had when my Mom and Aunt came from Zamboanga and they brough some salted ones.

Although I don’t go to Mass every Sunday as dictated by the Roman Catholic Church, which makes me a mortal sinner and would make me go to hell if I were to die right now since I haven’t confessed that one yet including another mortal sin I committed that Sunday morning too, which would mean I might see Judas because he committed suicide after what he did to Jesus regardless of it resulting to Jesus saving all of mankind as said in the Judeo-Christian dogma, I’m thankful that I was raised knowing I’m Catholic and was sent to Catholic school by my parents. I thank them for not being Katoliko-sarado as we say it here. Had they been like that, I would have had deep-seated issues about religion right now. I might even be the modern version of a Crusader or the Christian version of a suicide bomber in Middle East Asia. (Not all of the world’s suicide bombers were Muslims by the way just so anyone who still think so know as not all non-Muslim people are good people. And by no means I say that Muslims are bad. I’d cut my tongue before I claim that to be true. It would be unfair to the great prophet Mohammed who founded Islam.)

My point is, I’m thankful that I grew up and I'm at a point in my life where I see people as people, regardless of religion, sexual preference, race, and outlook in life or the absence of it.
And all that thought or triggered during that time when I was walking.

Living Life

A wrap up maybe…

Should not only be remembered or lived when we get affected by death.

Reminded me of what our Retreat Master shared to us during one of our sessions when I was in High School, I think, yeah High School, he said something like…
"Happiness is not (only) at the destination or at the end of the road, it can be found along it."

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay……………

I’ll probably post this and go to bed thankful I finally blogged again and later think I could have probably put something more or something else. Nah. Not something else. Maybe something more. Hehehehe. Hmmmm… how about blogging in all languages I know and feel comfortable using in writing… Sa Tagalog, in english, in Ifugao, in Ilocano, en Español… nah. I don’t know much Spanish anymore… But one good thing about growing up in Manila and knowing Tagalog, you realize there are a lot of Spanish terms used. Oh no… This is not entirely about "Living Life" part. I can probably go on and on talking about how it’s easier to grasp all the other Romance languages because I have a small feel of Spanish. Gah. ANYWAY.

It’s easier said that done, "Seize the moment!" "Live life to the fullest." "Treat each day like it’s the last."

Well technically yeah, each day is the last of its kind because you’ll never have another August 8, 2008 8:08 pm GMT+8 like you’ll never have today which is August 28, 2008 or my brother’s birthday which was last BLEEP when he turned BLEEP. Neto-khong heju chin nuhun nga archow ud ughoni un phulan. Numphilin heju metten hi hempolo juh galo un tagon. That’s Ifugao sentences there and it’s the common terms used. Had it been the highfalutin version of the old… even I may not know how to write it… Hahahah! Like the language of the Japanese court, confusing compared to the Japanese lingua franca. Had I known Aramaic and wrote it here, someone somewhere would have understood it.

The joy of living the simple joys of life, like speaking in a language no one would understand even in public. It’s like the ultimate coded language. Like in the real life-inspired movie Wind Talkers. Or like when the today’s first couple speak in Spanish just so the kasambahay wouldn’t understand.

Haaay. I said "a wrap up" but I also said "maybe." I can hear the cocks crow again…

I wish I can say everything here… But that would be against knowing what you can say and cannot say. Just like the "Just because you can, it doesn’t mean you should." Or the "Just because you should, it doesn’t mean you would." Wahahahahahah!

I hope I can meet someone who have had sex but is a virgin.

^__^ Understood?

Hmm… maybe now’s the time to say these… go into detail for anyone who was able to go this far or may have just browsed and found this part or probably in the event of being told by someone else to go at the bottom of Brent’s particular post… Hmmmmmmmmmmm…

Nah. Probably too "precious" to be shared here.

Aha! I can share without sharing at all!

Hini khun u ulon juh hay khumoh pfuphoy nga ulay guhnu phuphoy khu nga guhnuh naat ichichu juh miid khumoh naat ay hijuh juh hay ochumnoh nga lalae amat khu ihiin nga miid latta naat ihiin juh hay ochumnoh nga phuphoy.

Thank God my Mom’s Ifugao.

Jul 12, 2007: Friends disapoint you when you least expect it...

2008-07-12T06:44:00.003+08:00

Thank G*d I can still type considering I just had half (or less) of 700 ML of vodka while drinking with my female friend. There you go! capital M and L instead of ml. Dont care! shyet. My conscious mind still is winning over my uncaring carefree self. I cant even kiss and tell here. I cant tell where and who gave a *BLEEP BLEEP* and how it was like to *BLEEP BLEEP* *BLEEP*. And I still can keep track of my spelling and all that shit. F*ck! I just remembered that I hate it when I encounter things like "good guys turn bad" or something like "go for the bad ones because the good ones turn bad later" from "women." F you. Bitter bitches. Joke. I do have female friends who got hurt by pigs, not "men," becaus real MEN know how to treat WOMEN properly. Hay...... Life is too good to spend too much time brooding over the bad things. At sana walang ma-turn off dahil sa ako'y masyadong honest at walang takot na mag post ng mga BLEEP words dito. Dont care that much anymore! ^_^

July 11, 2008: Desiderata

2008-07-11T03:10:00.006+08:00

One of the few things everyone should read, understand, remember, keep in their heart of hearts, and share to everyone:

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others,

even to the dull and ignorant;

they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;

they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain or bitter,

for always there will be

greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career

however humble;

it is a real possession in the

changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,

for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you

to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals,

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love,

for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,

it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit

to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,

be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God,

whatever you conceive Him to be.

And whatever your labors and aspirations,

in the noisy confusion of life,

keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham,

drudgery, and broken dreams,

it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann

***

Glad I was finally able to remember to blog about this poem.

Forget about Said (the last canon writer and whose name is read as Sa-id), Barthes, or Foucault! Joke! I love them. If it weren't for them I wouldn't have had 1.00 in Prof. Cynthia Rivera's Literary Criticism course. ^_^

That poem there is something you can understand and keep with you forever. Like the Ten Commandments or the Golden Rule.

Yeah, I'm Roman Catholic so I'm only familiar with Christian thingies. Joke! :D

Okay it's 3:30 am... Brent please sleep before 4 am. Oh yeah. Lemme visit Bryanboy's blog. I want a good laugh. :p (I just realized I mentioned Christian and bryanboy one enter key apart. Oh. Now they're in one sentence! Anyways lemme look at that blog...)

And I'm back!

Oh my it's 3:43 already...

And thank G*d I just remembered to say that though I dont know who Bryanboy is talking about when he mentions models' names, and all these tons of people's names in the fashion industry, I do enjoy reading the funny things in there. He also gets to show the world, in his own way, more about the Philippines and our people. Though I dont like it when he says Filipinos have 3-inch dicks because it's not true. I should know. I'm a Filipino too. ^_^

Oh yeah. I love the model who posed here. Though she tripped several times, she looked like a flutterby in that pic... and the people in the background... wow... whoever took that pic s/he may have made sure to capture the people in the background.

Gusto ko na matulog... 4:35 na...

Been chatting with Bajie again... ala. 4:50 na... sleepyness...

It's technically g'morning but I like g'nytie more.

Gnytie world! Especially those living near the other side of my side of the world!

Hugs and kisses everyone!

I cant believe I posted a poem here but yeah... I love Desiderata...

July 12, 2008: Friends disappoint you when you least expect it

2008-07-09T06:37:00.000+08:00

Thank G*d I can still type considering I just had half (or less) of 700 ML of vodka while drinking with my female friend. There you go! capital M and L instead of ml. Dont care! shyet. My conscious mind still is winning over my uncaring carefree self. I cant even kiss and tell here. I cant tell where and who gave me a *BLEEP BLEEP* and how it was like to *BLEEP BLEEP* her. And I still can keep track of my spelling and all that shit. F*ck! I just remembered that I hate it when I encounter things like "good guys turn bad" or something like "go for the bad ones because the good ones turn bad later" from "women." F you. Bitter bitches. Joke. I do have female friends who got hurt by pigs, not "men," becaus real MEN know how to treat WOMEN properly. Hay...... Life is too good to spend too much time brooding over the bad things. At sana walang ma-turn off dahil sa ako'y masyadong honest at walang takot na mag post ng mga BLEEP words dito.

A promise to self...

2008-07-09T04:54:00.006+08:00

... broken today when I stayed awake until the sun went up.

Or was it? It wasnt an official "promise." I just told myself, I'll try to sleep earlier so I can wake up earlier.

I'll try again tonight. I was able to do it two straight nights before today.

Had we not only went out to the after shift thingie... gawd, it's only Tuesday! But it was a great night nonetheless. Well worth staying late. :)

Situps again when I wake up later... If only I haven't developed a taste for beer. Red Horse/Strong Ice. San Mig light... yeah... Pale Pilsen? Agchkpt! That last one's just not for me.

I want my flat tummy back! Well... not that it's "big" right now it's just... wait. I dont owe anyone an explanation on this except those of my friends who commented, "bakit parang lumalaki ang tiyan mo?"

Anyway! Im happy I'd be meeting my friends, Ria and Carmela on the 20th of this month. AND perhaps just for kicks try to meet in the city of Manila. :P (The future imperial capital, not just of the Philippines, but of the world. Buwahahahah! Now there goes my little megalomaniacal dream... down the drain just because I posted it here. Tsk. Not!)

Live well dearies!

And remember, never to start your sentences with "and" or "but", I mean, never believe in the bad things. It may just come true. Instead, believe that bad things, such as a great earthquake that's supposed to hit Manila on July 28, 2008, will not come true.

July 9, 2008: Another Relatively Strong Earthquake?!

2008-07-09T04:54:00.002+08:00

Two weekends ago, the damned storm Frank struck my beloved Philippines when I went to the Quezon province.

Last Weekend the first earthquake hit parts of Luzon with the epicenter found in the Quezon province. Just yesterday another quake tookplace here in Luzon (and southern Japan).

Next weekend, if I were to grant my inner-circle's wish, we'd go to Quezon and this time the July 18, 2008 "prediction" would happen.

Nah! That's Bull crap.

Unless "collective consciousness" makes itself real again this time.

And I was initially thinking of posting something today that would prevent that from happening assuming collective consciousness or whatever contributes in making a so called June 18, 2008 thingie come to pass. I hope that what I'm doing right now doesnt betray my reason for posting this in the first place.

Magulong post pero la ko pake. Basta.

If someone were to tell me that the (imperial) capital of the Philippines is about to experience a great earthquake like it never encountered before in writen history, I'd say, "really? How many would die? Will I die? If so, then what's your purpose in telling me if I were to die innevitably on that day anyway?" Then he'd say, "because by blogging about it, and through the chain of events that would follow, you'd be saving more people than if I havent told you." Yeah right. Parang butterfly effect ba or sound of thunder or the killing your grandfather theory I once saw on the Discovery channel or or or or stop.

Hmm... That made me think... If I were to die on that day, would I consider myself ready to go? No. I'm not yet ready to go. Too many dreams to fulfill and too many potentials not yet realized. If I were to have it my way, I'd probably even seriously aim for immortality at one point or something like it.

But as society always find out, youth lost is a tragedy.

Shyet. May araw na naman. 5:45 am na.

July 5, 2008: Shyet di ako nakapag blog kahapon, July 4, 2008!

2008-07-05T03:42:00.007+08:00

Shyet... July 5 na...
At the back of my head though I can almost hear Ate Magda, my dearest cousin in Zamboanga, who once told us that we should be thankful when another year comes by because it means God gave you another year to live.

Now why should I be reminded of that?!

Anyways... Sayang talaga... I told myself I'll blog everyday hanggang... :P

Makapag code switch nga in one sentence para mas di maintindihan ang posts ko ng mga di nakakaintindi ng beloved Tagalog mother toungue.

Feeling ko naman may foreigners na magbabasa ng post ko? Ganun! Libre ang mangarap dearies. :)

Ay i-translate natin: So I'm deluding myself of the fantasy that foreigners would be reading my post? Really! It's free to dream, dearies. :)

I'm still contemplating whether I should stay at home, or anywhere near home, or should I go with my friends to Talisay, Real, Quezon for the weekend again. This time with more of my friends' friends and without going into another storm like Frank. Well... as I check the time, 4:33 am GMT+8... I still have less than 6 hours to decide...

My family won't disown me... yet. Would they?
I've been into weekend sleepovers for the recent months like crazy. I feel guilty when I remember texting/calling home just to say I'm about to sleep somewhere in Sta. Mesa, Manila again, or in Pasay, or on my way to Quezon again, unwittingly going head-on with a storm at that time.

Now that I think about it thanks to Bernard's, my seaman friend whose birthday will be on the 15th this month, text message a while ago... I may just go. I'd love to see how the other dear family who had been our host is doing especially when that damned storm, Frank, destroyed their house overnight during our last visit there.

That's it. I may just go. I'll just try to test the waters later if I'd feel bad vibes when I mention Quezon... :P

Good thing my family is not very worried about the not-so-strong presence of the NPA there... Or they may just be good at keeping it to themselves. Yeah. Most probably the latter, based on recent experience. (Oh God, I pray that no attributed-to-the-AFP-disappearance happens in Quezon and after I post this.)

I just remembered I wanted to post this one down... Everytime I go home, I almost always get to see this elderly man selling balut. I used to buy balut from him but my ritual became more of going by the bakery to buy iron nails, duh, bread.
So one night I thought why dont I post something about contentment because when I saw him here are the things that went through my mind, and I'll try to put it in order of appearance:

(Btw, I said mind because what goes through/within the head is blood, not thoughts. The same goes with the head down there.)

1. When I reach the same age as him, I wouldnt want to be in the same situation.
2. But how can I be sure that he havent had a good life, I mean, better days?
3. How can I be sure that *delete*just*delete* because he sells balut, he is not living a comfortable life.
4. What if he has trully lived, a.k.a. been wild and good and done everything in between, and is still LIVING, his life? What if he had been there and already done that and he is just contented and trully happy with his present situation.
5. And isn't he sweet/nice/a true good citizen for sweeping the egg shells around him?
6. And at this point I may have thought a whole lot more at then...

Hay... maraming pangyayari sa buhay at paligid na masarap ishare sa mundo... It's just that I dont have a Blackberry or gadget that I can post them with.

En ingles/tagalog: Oh... many things happen in life and everywhere that would give me the simple satisfaction of being able to share with the world... Kaya lang wala kong Blackberry o gadget na magagamit para maipost ang mga yun.

Basta na touch naman ako sa nakaraang post ko at nagcomment ang mga tao na di mo maexpect na magko-comment. Well, sabagay... you really can't tell for sure who may just drop by and leave a comment on one of your posts...

Pero shyet. Iba parin pag may kausap kang may sense in real life... over coffee... Well Im no coffee lover but I'd go for a nice chat while having my favorite Strawberries and Cream in starbuko (yeah I din't say Starbucks there because I didn't want to) while the person Im talking to can have all the caffeine s/he wants.

Kitin said "That is so gay!" when she heard me ordering S and C and I think I said or thought "So what. I like it." Then when green tea came out it became my 2nd fave. Most people I know dont like it maybe because of the grassy/leafy taste. Hahahah! But I like it still.

Thank God I (still) have high metabolism.

One time Kitin said if there'd be a food shortage, she'd still be alive and sitting pretty living off her stored fats while the rest us, high metabolism peeps, waste away fast and die.

But golly... I have to cut down on booze... My size 30 jeans is starting to squeeze me... (And I used to wear size 32 at 12 years old)

Yeah. Dont kill me. I knew how it was to be fat. And I also know how it is to be thin with people telling you to eat more. At one time I'm like "Yeah! I eat more than you think." and the next I'm like "See! Now you're asking where I put it all?"

I've also had my shares of "Baboy! Baboy!" shit when I was a youngER and "Why are you so thin?! What happened?! Eat more." lines repeated again and again and still yet again from concered dearies even until last Summer when I went to Mayoyao, Ifugao.

Oh God... The sun is already up again. I'll probably stay awake till I finally decide whether to go or not to go to Quezon today. I can hear cocks crowing. Let's make that roosters crowing. (Hahahahah! Reminded me of the "year of the cock" instead of "rooster.")

Anyway... Brent, you may just go. It's already 6:28 am. Less than 4 hours to go before you finally decide.

Have a great, meaningful, weekend dearies!

Live and love life!

July 3, 2008: Let me tell you something about life...

2008-07-03T05:04:00.002+08:00

... from another 22 year old's point of view.

*Very random (joke) and somewhat another free-writing post (no joke).*

A person always has more to offer - No matter how simple or meek s/he may be. S/he may just be hiding his/her real strength and potential for all you know. Just so you wont feel threatened or somewhat belittled.

People may really care even when they present themseleves as aloof and uncaring - It's probably because they think that it's for your own good or just maybe because they're afraid of being tagged as weak. Weak because they show their "soft" side. What they dont know, either because they're afraid to admit or just plain fail to realize, is that it's more courageous to show emotion, MOST especially for MALES, in a society where showing emotion is equal to being weak. Real MEN know when to show emotion. (To society: please don't raise boys into dysfunctional robots.)

The female mind is very fascinating, if you haven't noticed yet.

MadTV is everybody's excuse to play around with racism and all that is taboo in most societies.

Like what my college friend, Erika Lyn, once said, everybody just want to be accepted. I'd just add now: by who? Let's try to choose who we may want to accept us. Because not everybody is willing and not everyone is worthy of our un/conscious efforts to be accepted. :)

Happy is the content. And so is the ignorant. Yey to the first. Boohoo to the next.

And I wish I can post more "let me tell you som... oh yeah.

Make new friends
But keep the old
One is silver
And the other is gold

Do not be afraid to meet new people, either in real life or via the web's wide world. And that though there are times when you feel let down by people you have met (in real life or otherwise) and just when thought you already are having a good time with them when suddenly something happens, or you do/say something, that recreates the divide that had been there before the connection (real or imaginary)... rest assured that you were not the only one being unpleasant.

Remember that you also have had your share of patience, in silence or otherwise, during those times when you feel your sensibilities are not considered.

Let me tell myself that people have their own pace at particular stages in their life. Pace at trying to know people and pace at getting comfortable with certain individuals. And at one point, we get lucky when we happen to get that so-called connection considering everyone has a unique pace.

Enough metaphysics. Joke.

Just because it looks easy, it doesnt mean that it is. ;)

When in the workplace, it's nice to see happy people doing what they were tasked to do. Unfortunate are those who dont see the benefits of being surrounded by happy colleagues and try their bestest to make everything a tad bit more difficult. Thank God I'm lucky to have the colleagues I have now.

Just because they are police, or in a male dominated profession, and that they are female, it doesnt mean that they're lesbian.

Just because they are manly males, it doesnt automatically mean they are straight. Same goes with the girly males, it doesnt necessarily mean they are gay.

Just because I'm 22, etc etc etc, I cannot determine that one is probably the only child of both first-born parents, that one is suffering inferiority/superiority complex, that one is so caught up in the so-called non-essential, that one deludes him/herself of being better than most, that one is closet straight, that your country's queen b may be a super witch capable of summoning rains and thunder storms on rally days (scheduled or not), that that that that a blogger such as myself can go "too far" with his posts. (Well atleast Im no Brian *BLEEP* Gorrell *had I spelled his name correctly? I dont care* who makes blogging a more local news worthy material for primetime TV)

(Yey. My friends in UST wont be ashamed of me atleast. I still have that responsible "journalism" thingie in me. I wont just share issues on sex sex sex and more sex here or scandal scandal scandal or spread fabrications etc without consideration for whoever may come along and hurt their sensibilities! blah.)

Still... Nothing beats real, live, human to human communion of souls, a.k.a., plain good ol' talk about whatnot.

Brent, 4:52 am na, matulog ka na.

"Oh God."

2008-07-02T05:44:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought I'll rest after I do a last click on the last link of my awake hours... I saw this post and thought I'll blog about it.

The last post on my first month in the blogosphere. Full circle?

Oh God talaga...

5:44 AM na... tumitilaok na ang mga manok... kanina pa...

July 2, 2008: Nangamong otog ingkhuno muntitinikhow taon numin.

2008-07-02T03:34:00.004+08:00

To blog or not to blog...

To follow the muses' call or not...

To wait for an inspiration or not...

But life itself is an inspiration if not THE inspiration... is it not?

To care about what people would think or not? Maybe not.

May just be wanting to be at one's best when wanting to post a deserving "blogable" experience or not... (and by "blogable" I mean by my not-so-written-on-stone standards) May not be untrue.

Not untrue... That statement reminded me of this one time when I admitted something to Kitin... that time when we became each others' exes... when she asked _____________ and I said that it is not untrue. And she said something like how chivalric or courtly or something like that.

If Curb sees the paragraph above he may just roll his eyes... or not.

***

Ah! Talisay, Real, Quezon, Mayoyao and Kiangan in Ifugao, and Isabela comes to mind when I think of the past weeks... Hm... Muses muses I can hear you... Or I may just be sleepy.....

My beloved clan... fall from grace and back again... Mayoyao's Henanga, the center of the once biggest municipality of Ifugao... traditions, ceremonies, and culture in the now not the then when they used to exclusively wear g-string and traditional clothing probably more than 5 generations ago (in those cold nights when today even an ordinary jacket's barely enough!)... our family ties... how blood runs... how the back or Sierra Madre can be seen from a distance... the Mayoyao tongue that I learned to speak as far as I can remember speaking Tagalog and english... (English w/ the E not e btw is for what the Brits speak) If only my beloved provinces are not more than 4-12 hours ride away... I'd be there every weekend... Oh yeah I was... Wish I can do it everyday...

We love you Auntie Marina. Your memory lives with us forever. Your wake was the most attended one I have ever been to in Mayoyao. Im sorry I never greeted you Happy Mother's Day that day Auntie... I thought, well you have your son and your darling grandson to greet you so maybe I didn't have to... I regret that now. I wish I dont have this lump in my throat now... My Happy Mother's Day to you may be too late that night when I touched your hand but I mean it with all my heart... As true as the tears Im fighting back right now. Shame on me. Shame on me for not greeting you that day.

You are more than the Vice Mayor's wife, more than the mother of the most famous/notorious man my generation ever produced... More than the most doting grandmother to her one and only grandson... More than the 3rd eldest in a dozen... More than anything you were known for. were known for---I dont like that sense of the past tense. Bottomline is we love you and we were able to show it to you in more ways than I may have had I greeted you during Mothers' Day like I greeted my own beloved Mother.

You are brave.

You are the only person I knew for sure who faced death and left this world in her own time and terms. Lola Esther probably did the same but Im not as sure as I am with you.

Nangamong otog ingkhuno muntitinikhow taon numin.

Hangang sa muli nating pagkikita.

Until we meet again.

***

Hay... It's now 4:43 am...

July 1, 2008: And so the countdown begins...

2008-07-01T02:13:00.006+08:00

Today is the 1st of July...

And so the countdown begins...

(Ria, dearie, please don't roll your eyes again. You know me when these days come... 0_O Please tell Mela, dearie, what I told you... ;) Well, I know you will because "you know you love me. xoxo")

***

To self: Remember this post a few months back... Well the weeks since the last post before this was... well... let me say if you titled that January 1st 2008 post "I'll miss you 2007. Welcome 2008." then combined experiences in that span of time, if you were to blog all of it, collectively, should be titled: 'Everything is a first time' or 'There's a first time for everything.'

There is a first time for everything... Good or otherwise, worthwhile or not... everything taught and still countinues to teach a lesson or two.

Basta sa sobrang dami ng nangyari... wala na oras para magblog.

Like what I said in my chatbox once... too busy with life to blog.

Basta, nothing, not even blogs, can ever ever fathom how simple/complex or happy/sad life can be especially when it is being celebrated.

Life is for the living, dearies, as I read in this Friendster profile.

Isa pa pala sa mga natutunan ko at naisabuhay ko parin naman sa gitna ng lahat ng mga nangyari: Be honest.

Be honest especially to your self.

There are few other things that can make you feel as light or as free when you know in your inner heart that you are honest with your self.

(Im now talking about "inner heart" here... Gai-jin by James Clavell all over again.)

Anyway, Brent, yeah... and so the countdown begins... :)

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-13T03:35:00.010+08:00

I would like to greet my dearest Mother, and all the great Mothers in the world, a Happy Mother's Day!

I already greeted my Mom the other day but I want to greet her here too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZ1eWIJC-Ok

I'm NOT Roguefire btw.

I so love my Mom, I'll say...

Cheers! Live and continue to Love Life.

Oh my God. Latest major earthquake in Central China killed around 9,000 people...

2008-05-13T03:35:00.007+08:00

Latest storm in Myanmar killing around 15,000

Latest major earthquake in Central China killing around 9,000

The last thing we would like to think is the Tibet/Olympics issue or a "never mind China, they have more than a billion left" thought at the back of our non-Chinese heads.

We're talking about human lives here.

I hope that my friend in China is all right and so is his sister. I hope he replies to my IM message soon.

I hope a fellow blogger, Derek, posts another post here.

All of whom lives in Chengdu, Sichuan, China.

I hope the BISEAN authors can still post.

I wish I dont have a reason to feel like crying and have more reason to say cheers at the end of this post...

I want to curse.

Pu*BLEEP*ng i*BLEEP*a talaga.

Forgive me, dear mothers of the world, for cursing.

There are just too many things to blog about...

2008-05-08T05:56:00.000+08:00

But so little time and lazyness just steps in most of the time...

Napakaraming pwedeng iblog pero nakakatamad mag post!

Choor hini mubulin nga iblog ngam in kaykhu maholet!

Nagadu ti mabalin nga iblog ngam... shit I dont remember the Ilocano term for nakakatamad... grrr.

Hay... basta masarap mag blog. Lalo na if it's blogging for blogging's sake. :P

Ang mga Hapon ay ubod ng libog. Parang mga Pilipino din. (Now that came out of nowhere.)

Bogging for blogging's sake... That's how it was... in its purest sense probably years ago when I was in first year High School and Abby was already blogging... around what... 8 to 10 years ago? :)

Cheers! :P

My life's a catwalk and Im its super model!

2008-05-08T05:43:00.001+08:00

Just when I've been happily living in my bubble of joy thinking that I own this idea, lo and behold, saw this link.

We do all have the right to make ourselves happy. Right? Whether it's because of a happy thought, though not outright delusional, but just happily inspired by life, or just because we feel good just by having no care in the world and just walk like we all should, super model or not: with heads held high and excellent posture.

I learned to stand and walk right just by watching my Mom and especially when that day came when I thought, to hell with what people might think, I should stand and walk with ease. I thought about this then because if you havent noticed yet, we tend to try to get out of our way just to blend with the crowd and avoid standing out.

Makes everything easier. Hassle-free, not over done, just right, walking.

A friend in Sykes even commented one night when I was on my way to work: "Ang angas maglakad ah!"
He said it in a way to connote walking with confidence.

Just walking right seem to make things around you feel better... like everything seems a little bit lighter...

I'm sure that doesnt make sense to everyone but I dont care. ;)

Just keep walking, walking, walking. Parang si Dory lang with her just keep swimming song.

***

Gah! I miss Mayoyao, Ifugao... I miss my relatives especially our Lola.

I hope to see her soon!

I should also go to Isabela before summer ends. Atleast just to see how things are going... in my biggest monetary investment so far... :D

Live! Love life!

Naalala ko yung patalastas dati--- Live it, love it... Hong Kong...

Anyway.

Cheers!

To be or not to be... Back to the dark side or not?

2008-05-05T03:57:00.004+08:00

Welcome back to the dark side, Brent. (Evil laugh in the bg. Plus fire and lightning streaks. Plus roaring thunder.)

Hah! You wish... But I almost miss you though... Even after all these recent years of being as good as I can be...

I once lived that life... Not so very good for the tweener that I was... should have been way too out of my league for that age...

But how bad was a bad Brent? What was a tweener capable of doing? Benz, just in case you see this post... I haven't told you even half of the story. ("Ok. What story?" I can almost hear you say.:D I wont delude myself about me telling you a story. Very vague and details-lacking "story" it was. :P ) And I'll probably bring the rest of it to the grave with me. :) Uhm... My life as a tweener has nothing to do with incest/bestiality/murder/gang rape or any of such just in case some of you may get ideas. Haven't gone that far. And thank God I haven't. Or it may have been the land of no return for me and would have been this age's living Hitler. (Needless to say this blog may not even exist and it would take Brent to kill Brent as it took Hitler to kill Hitler.)

Isa itong magulong post.

It's sometimes interesting to be not good all the time. It's quite tempting for me to go 180 and radically change.

But then again. Why be bad when being good works well. Why not be bad... again. It may be an ultimate fulfillment of the "New Experience" in the 4 human needs: Security, Response, Recognition, New Experience.

But then again, as Kitin wisely said, If you do something you dont usually do, it won't be new for there are already people doing it. (But then this time it would still be diferent for it would be me doing it and not the usual doers. It would be like, Mother Theresa, bless her soul, doing Polpot's job.)

Yikes. Magulo ang post na ito pero wala akong pakialam. It's my blog. (Which reminds me about blogging for blogging's sake.)

hay... 5:09 am na. Wow... 3:57 on the post time there... Took my time to let this post to stay just as it is before clicking on "Publish Post."

I should give my body some slack and have a decent sleep for a change...

G'nyt gmt+8 world.

May you never see an evil 20+ year-old me. ;) Wait till I'm 30+. lol

What vulnerable? On Friendster?

2008-04-27T13:17:00.006+08:00

Im lazy so here's a copy-paste straight from my friendster:

Im a half Ifugao, half Chavacano, farmer wanna be.I grew up in a family surrounded by family and relatives speaking Tagalog, the Mayoyao-Ifugao dialect, and english, forcing me to learn at a young age that to trully speak a language, you have to be in that language's attitude.

It's a pity that I haven't mastered my Dad's provincial language, Chavacano. The closest thing that I came to understand Chavacano was when I had Spanish I and II in UST.

Anyways...

Im the the type who:

asked the "Where did God come from?" question before entering nursery school

remembers what it was like to be happy when his baby brother was born when he was five

learned the meaning of the word "talkative" when my Kindergarten adviser told my Mom about
me being talkative.

had asked friends in grade five about his flaws so he can improve them

is stanger to the feeling of being hungry until his growth spurt during high school

used to be fat from grade four to first year highschool before started getting taller in 2nd year, having the perfect body in 3rd year, and being lanky in 4th yr

dreamed of becoming a doctor and an actor

had been striving to get the body he used to have in 3rd year H.S.

vividly remembers his first nightmare in Isabela

not older than five, upon someone's suggestion, wondered how a hot stone almost has the same feeling as ice when you have your bare feet on it

used to be suffering from colonial mentality

have had the joys of reading Adarna books

used to read the books of Og Mandino

used to be a college student and had the arrogance to believe that we were the greatest people on planet Earth

(thought about putting something here about my two clans but decided to keep it to myself)

likes the "it goes without saying" line

believes that material possesions are trully owned by the one who worked for it

used to have lots of teenage angst

is no stranger to hatred for hatred's sake

realized that some of the best advise I can take are also the best advise that I can give when I'm not currently in that situation

used to have this as a Friendster About Me statement and decided to keep it---"I need to save in order to gain. Made a feasible financial goal that will be met before the this year ends. God, everyone, and me, suppport me please...

1. I gravitate towards people that I know I would like and would like me in the long run.
2. I know my limitations and, at 22, I'm still discovering my potentials.
3. I want to trust in the highest power that I'll find the piece that would make my puzzle complete."

I'm the type who wonders if people like me are endangered as I always receive the skeptic eye and more of the statement of "Really?" when I share things about nothing happening when I slept at a friend's house or when I went to Quezon to have a great time or that time when... *BLEEP* was asleep and *BLEEP* and me were tipsy and still awake.

It goes without saying that assuming too much about the ambigous line prior this is quite misleading.

I continue to do simple things that avarage people would normally avoid doing just because they're afraid of what people they are usually surrounded by may think or say. (Like the 2 lines before this.)

Im the type who wonders about going to the mountains and living like a hermit or becoming a motropolitan bohemian only if I weren't as responsible as I have let myself become.

Im the type who's not afraid to share that he's at a friend's house eating Cadbury and drinking Baileys while typing this down and thinking about blogging about it on his blog and adding that tomorrow he'll be in another friend's house sharing his life experiences and introspections.

It also goes without saying that this About Me portion, like blogs, is never enough to share everything about me. That's why they have that "Describe Who You Want to Meet" below so that people you would like to meet can meet you and know about you.

***

And that's the end of the friendster copy-paste.

I hope that when it rains again, it only happens 3am-5am. :)

Cheers! (I remember the times when I always included cheers at the end of my every post... Guess it was 2005 then... ^_^ Cheers indeed!)

Puerto Galera is a great place to visit!

2008-04-22T13:43:00.007+08:00

Im not in the mood to blog about the place right now and I want to give it justice so much that Im going to stop here. :P

We love you.

2008-04-07T00:41:00.011+08:00

Anilah nga kadwo jhu hi Apo Dyos ad uhgoni uncle Paet ju uncle Colen.

Uchi' penhod nga maat hini khun ulon hunu i-Majawjaw nga tolo hini mun-iibphu nga matoy jo un marpas hunoh khun metob.

Choh-ju nga cuncle mi khumo juh tikhun ju chuhmi heto lutah. Ichi ju khumo chimi buy-un.

Ika-lalag mi chu'ju tun uncle mi.

What are priceless and beautiful in life: Global City, Taguig

2008-04-07T00:41:00.006+08:00

Jogging for an hour, alone, in Global City between 2 to 4 AM. Being aware of the sound of crickets and of my tiredness and the feeling of sweat trailing down while most people in my time zone are asleep… Bliss.

Being with college friends, Rica and Camela, and blowing bubbles at the Bonifacio High Street. I would like to name it the cool pet park among other things though. rofl

Experiencing the inner-child of people just by blowing bubbles and see them chase after those. Hahahhahahah! Kids, career women with their Starbucks, an elderly Korean lady with her sons/nephews… almost no one can resist the charm of bubbles! You can just see it in their eyes…

One lovely lady was chasing one and got became self-conscious when she heard me laugh. I didn’t mean to embarrass her. And to make her feel that it’s okay to chase bubbles and be young at heart I said "It’s alright" loud enough for her to hear.

Laughing at particular silly tweeners/teeners. Hahahahah! Evil me. As if Rica and I weren’t tweeners once… Thank God I’m over those stages… Wow… I guess… Fun turmoil. :p

What are priceless and beautiful in life: Talisay

2008-04-07T00:41:00.004+08:00

Knowing some of the people in Talisay, Real, Quezon and already liking them enough that I actually felt sad just at the thought of going home.

Almost drowning in Balagbag falls after trying to help a drowning friend and having the two of us being helped by Jason. Hahahah!

Jumping into the waterfall while thinking in midair: "Why am I not touching the water yet… what am I doing here… what did I put my self into this time…?" all in less than 1 sec and remembering it.

Eating seafood one long banana leaf! Without spoons and forks!

Sitting under a waterfall and just hearing the sound of rushing water… and finding tiny snails and crabs in corners…

Having bonfires, singing, telling stories and just drinking lambanog till I fall asleep on the sand, under the full moon and a blanket of stars with the sound of the waves in the background…

Having a darker shade of tan WITHOUT the sunburn!

Knowing people like Jason, Jolo, Jobert, Jeffrey, Jean, and MJ, whose real name is Juanito, Andy and our good hosts Tita Ludy with her husband and their chilren: Noise, Nice and Holiday, and being thankful for making Talisay a life-long experience.

Being lucky enough to have High School friends like Arlene, Sheena, and Jelda, bring me there.

I would like to go there again in May when they celebrate Mayuhan. The people of Talisay will be the organizers this year!

Another Pivotal Moment

2008-03-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

I have a new job/career starting tomorrow. I’m now more excited than anxious about it. I have regained my excitement and once again diminished my fear for the unknown.

Present and Former Student/s

2008-02-29T03:19:00.004+08:00

After taking my renewed NBI clearance, thinking about processing my clearance for SYKES Asia later, and while waiting for Nina for the next 2.5 hours so I can finally give my long overdue gift for my first and only God-daughter, Avi, here are some random thoughts, more or less, while looking around the Royal and Pontifical, Catholic University of the Philippines:

What are their dreams?

How idealistic are they?What goes on in their heads right now? An exam? A grade? An annoying/wonderful/sexy professor? The upcoming graduation this March? The job/career that they're about to have in the following month/s year/s?
What life awaits them outside the four walls of the university?
When will the time come when they realize that their dream will never or had just been fulfilled?
OMG. They look so young. Was it really just 2 years ago when I was like that lanky, long haired, lad?

Wow... the UST Main Building...
"This land was donated to the Dominican Friars years ago..." according to my Filipino Prof.
The first earthquake-resistant building en las islas Filipinas.

Wow there’s another new University of Santo Tomas bus!

So Fr. Lana’s not the Rector anymore…

This yearbook’s heavy!

I’ve never seen wall climbing done here during my time! And different kites and frisbees!
Cool!!!

G*d! It’s so cold Im shiverrring!
Would that girl find me strange and rude if I ask her what’s her painting about?

Did I just hear the surname of one of my former prof mentioned by that AB student sans the "Sir?!"

I miss being a student… more worries then but they’re all manageable. And they’re all for the sake of higher learning. You had no choice but to keep on learning.

"I’ll never let schooling stand in the way of my education." Whoever said that first, I don’t remember.
After almost two decades of non-stop education/schooling, right after graduation, provided you’re not immediately going to take an M.A. or pursue Law or Medicine, I found myself in a state that I have never experienced before. What would these students do when they come across that situation?

Thank God for my brother! Im still not left out with the issues going on in the academe.

Nina invited me to join in the rally tomorrow… er… later when the sun’s up. I cant go as of this moment. I don’t feel like making an irrevocable stand yet.

Oh G*d not again. I need a breather that’s why the free writing and yet here I am blogging about THAT issue again. (Brent, stop.)

To all those hot or cool headed Filipinos who want GMA out right now:

Okay, just for this time, imagine that GMA is out of the palace before her term ends in 2010.
Who will take her place? Easy. Our Constitution dictates that the Vice-President takes the place of the President. (Tell me that you geniuses sincerely want him there. I don’t have anything against Vice-President Noli de Castro but come on!) Anyone who takes the place of GMA, just in case, before 2010 aside from Noli is unacceptable.

Why not make all these issues serve as permanent lesson to each and everyone of us so that come next election we would all, from the lower-lower to the upper-upper of the socio-economic pyramid, be wise enough to choose the best Presidentiable, vigilant enough to be able to safely guard our ballots, intelligent enough as early as now to, once and for all, work for a credible Commission on Elections.

Any better ideas out there?!

I hope that at the end of the day, we’ll be happy and content when we tell ourselves: we have the government that we deserve.

God, help us.

I so miss being a student!

HAPPY THREE FRIENDS

2008-02-29T03:18:00.001+08:00

From my heart of hearts, I would like extend my gratitude to my two friends, Carmela and Ria, who have finally decided to talk again after more than 1 year and a half of non-existent communication. That’s how it is. Them ladies. (Brent, stop it unless you wanna introduce machismo or feminism into this blog.)

I now publicly and shamelessly admit that I terribly missed Carmela the whole time. We were unable to contact one another, having both changed numbers, among other things. But enough of that.

But having met last Feb 26… after almost two years… it was more than enough to replace the months of longing.

Maraming salamat talaga sa inyong dalawa.

Thank you too Mela for your gift. The moment I saw the sand timer, I understood.

Hugs you two!

And Let it be known that I was at one of my happiest less than 5 minutes ago.

2008-02-22T02:45:00.007+08:00

It's now 2:47 am.

And Let it be known that I was at one of my happiest less than 5 minutes ago.

I just had one of the best moments of my life...

Nevermind that I should be awake by 8 am later.

Or that I should fill up some forms to be submitted by 10 am.

Or that I should rest and relax. Yeah, I know, it almost the same as going to sleep.

But I dont care if Im still awake and blogging when I "should" be asleep and resting.

All I know is that I wanted to let it be known that Im so happy I cant sleep and even felt the need to blog about it.

I'll now code switch to Filipino. Hehehehehehe.

Ayoko makalimutan ang mga sandali kanina.

Nagusap kami ni Kitin. Oo usap lang. Baka kasi kung ano pa ang naiisip ng kung sino mang Pilipino na magagawi sa parteng ito. ;) Usap na tipong kahit nung kami pa e di ko kailan man nalaman tungkol sa kanya. At nagagalak at lubos akong nakakaramdam ng honor na malaman yung bagay na iyon lalo na nang sabihin niyang oo nung tinanong ko siya kung alam ba ng isa ring malapit niyang kaibigan na si Ian ang bagay na yun.

May gusto rin akong tanungin sa kanya kanina pero buti nalang di ko tinanong... Sinagot narin niya dahil sa isa niyang sinabi.

I'll never have those moments exchanged for anything else in the world! Simply now a precious part of my life.

I hope I dont kill myself later for saying this but I'll go ahead anyway:

We are friends first indeed, Kitin, and I have found a deeper respect and love for you now my dear friend.

And Pule, if by any chance you come across this blog, I wanna tell you wala kang dapat ipagselos dahil sakin. :) Nangingibabaw ang pagiging magkaibigan namin ni Kitin. No more, no less.

Basta maligaya ako.

For The First Time in the History of the Universe!!!

2008-02-21T20:15:00.003+08:00

Kitin, my close friend, confidante, former alter-ego and gf, just texted and invited me to hang out at the Bonifacio Hight Street tonight!

That's a first! (It's usually me who invite her to hang out anytime during the day or night and she's mostly either with her bf, Pule, or at a place far far away.)

And if you're reading this, Kitin, tell me your blog link! Or... or... uhm... nothing. :p

It’s because I care.

2008-02-18T02:12:00.002+08:00

Just because I belong to the middle class, notorious for being jaded, uncaring, irresolute, with political colors of ROYGIBIV, and uncooperative to the call of the times, it doesn’t mean that I don’t consider the idea of actively participating in a possible mass exercise of freedom of assembly just to show how we should react to the gross acts of corruption and graft by people who betray the tax payers’ trust.

Just because I just submitted my letter of resignation last Friday it doesn’t mean that I can now bad mouth the account, much less the company, and expose its faults to the whole wide world of the web. Though a possible impact may be minimal, it would be nothing short of showing ingratitude and lack of consideration to the company’s reputation.

Just because I don’t have anything to do that is related to work and I can just sleep all day, it doesn’t mean that I can now enjoy the luxury of excessive free time and let myself just do nothing. I already read all the interesting books, magazines, and encyclopedias at home, watched all the interesting movies on CDs DVDs and tv shows, updated my self using the news with the economic and political situation of my country and exhausted my mind on thinking about almost about anything… but why do I still feel bored?!?!? It’s probably because I presently lack new experience. (Remember a person's needs: Security, Response, Recognition, and New Experience)

Just because I have earned lots of great friends for the past years, it doesn’t mean that I can have them beside me when I want them to anytime I want. Some of them have work while those who don’t have jobs at present are too far away or are too preoccupied with the people they’re in a relationship with. I just have too much time right now and it’s very unfortunate that I don’t have someone who has the same amount of free time to spend it with. I mean… I need just need someone to talk with! I don’t care if you’re a total stranger and can only speak French! As long as we can communicate and you’re not a serial killer, it’s fine with me!

Just because I have the "freedom" to do what I fancy doing, it doesn’t mean I should just go ahead and do it. Sometimes there are people, sensibilities, and possible adverse outcomes that should be considered.

Just because I’m single and like I already said, have much free time, I can succumb to moments of weakness and just do whatever. It’s because I care for what is unforeseen and may be.

These are some of the reasons why everyone should give attention to the recent events:

2008-02-18T02:08:00.001+08:00

Though unknown to many until it was mentioned in the news lately, the "traditional" 20% lost to kickbacks should alarm everybody because:

The money lost to graft and corruption could have been used for housing projects for the families of our soldiers and police.

The money lost to graft and corruption should have been spent on building more schools or renovating the old ones in the far flung barangays of the poorest provinces.

The money lost to graft and corruption could have been given to the public school teachers and other government employees.

The money lost to graft and corruption should have been used to buy combat boots for the soldiers we send to fight rebel groups.

The money lost to graft and corruption could have been used to build or improve farm-to-market roads.

The money lost to graft and corruption should have been allocated for research and development in the field of renewable energy source for the country.

The money lost to graft and corruption could have been used to improve the means of our cost guards in protecting our seas from smugglers etc.

And an almost infinite list is of should haves and could haves is replaced by this line…

The money lost to graft and corruption, simply put, could, as it should, have been used for the use of the people!

So… I humbly post here are what I have realized and thought of so far:

We can’t let ourselves oust one president after another. This is no freakin’ elementary classroom! This is a country’s president for sanity’s sake! Although maybe if we can guarantee ourselves that we can rise from the ashes and maintain our present climb after the euphoria of ousting another erring president and letting the vice-president get promoted, then go ahead take her off of the palace by all means except through assassination etc.

If we harness this energy brought by our collective consciousness, kindled by realization, and force ourselves to remember during those crucial seasons of elections, then we may just be able to place trustworthy leaders in power and prevent ourselves from going through all this over again.

Let ourselves have the government we deserve. Ok, that line was scary… Maybe it should go this way: Let our future generations have the government they deserve.

SM Mall of Asia

2008-02-18T02:06:00.001+08:00

Just been to MoA with my H.S. friend, Neil, yesterday afternoon. Updated on some things, laughed at old jokes during H.S. and talked about the present.

Was just about to txt Ria just in case she and her boyfriend are present in the vicinity when she sent a quote. Coincidence? Whatever. Heheheh. She was at Novaliches though.

A wonderful day spent with a good friend. :)

By the way… God, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to attend the Sunday Mass yesterday even though I was at the San Roque parish church this afternoon and was also pointing out to Neil the church beside MoA.

I HATE BUMHOOD!!!

2008-02-12T20:27:00.000+08:00

I hate bumhood but it gives me the free time I haven't had for the past 1.5 years.

More time to read books, introspect more, dream, plan, and just BE.

But what happens when you have done everything from blog hopping, to friendly overnight chitchats at friends' homes, to DVD marathons, to fiestas (thanks to Sheena's relatives in Pateros for the good food! :D), to family talks about some personal issues, to watching news on the latest issues here and overseas (ZTE scandal here and the recent assassination attemp on Timor Leste's President and Prime Minister), to watching anime, to planning how I would like life to be in the near future, to to to...

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Do I need to be in a romantic relationship again?

If I were to get into another romantic relationship... I... I dunno... I guess I haven't found one or had enough interest in a person that would make me feel like getting into a relationship.

But then there are, how many, 6 billion people out there? Atleast one is probably the right one, or the right now, for me. Yuck. I didnt just type those and forgot to delete them too, did I?
This is like... me exposing myself in the internet. Eeeew.

I guess this is what weeks of bumhood can do to me...

Maybe I need to do something radical... or simple... or something simply radical...

BTW, to my fellow Filipinos, please dont try to demand the resignation of President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo again. It may seem that the removal/replacement of the present administration is right thing to do in the spirit of upholding the truth and etc, however, as much as I hate how the evil side of our government is going, it may not be wise to take PGMA out of Malacañang today. We may need to wait by the next Presidential elections in 2010 and by then, it would be the perfect time to remember all the scams that we have heard of the past years and try to wisely choose the best, or the least evil, among the presidentiables.

I think I love bumhood more than I hate it.

I highly recommend The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coehlo

2008-02-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

Thank you, my friend, Sheena, for lending me the book.

An advise to those not used to or ready to have the Supreme Being, a.k.a. God, referred to as a Goddess: try to have an open mind. If you can't, try to avoid the book. :p

Rodolfo "Jun" Lozada, Jr's his name

2008-02-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

I, along the with people who cared to take notice, got interested about this man when he was missing at the local airport, allegedly taken by the Police and members of the Presidential Security Group (PSG). (You just cannot not get interested when things like this happen and the media is lucky enough to cover it.)

Then there was his press conference last night, that I happened to watch on the evening news, wherein it was made known that he will appear before the Senate. Mom said something that told me she'll watch it as it unfolds the next morning.

Guess who's the man?! (Whatever.)

He bailed out of the very much publicized scams, a.k.a. the ZTE deal, when the former Commission on Elections (COMELEC) Chair Benjamin Abalos pushed his alleged 50% kickback from the 200+ MILLION US FRIGGIN DOLLARS (50+ PHP is to 1 USD at that time) and threatened his life last.......January 18, if I remember correctly as he remembered it clearly while, at that time, he was driving and the former COMELEC chair told him he's close with the military, intelligence, etc, and that he can have him killed (when he goes anywhere near Mandaluyong or somewhere).

He was kidnapped by armed men who identified themselves to be the Police, some of which are members of the PSG. (Yeah, I already said that. I would just like to give a reminder of who the obvious puppeteer/s may be.)

The Senate tested his credibility. It was made clear by Senator Miriam Defensor-Santiago, et al, the he is not a saint indeed, though sorrounded by our dear Priests and Nuns. It was pointed out that he once did less than reputable deeds (an understatement) while he was President of a said company.

Particular Senators verbally showed their belief in his credibility during the hearing. (I hope they're doing that more so because they know in their hearts that here is a brave person taking action against corruption and not just for show so that, you know, whatever, for the next elections.)

(I was super tempted to post about this during their lunch break at 12:45 or 1:45 pm, during the heat of the moment, but remembered what Sir Christian Esguerra told us when I was in college, that you try to write not during the heat of the moment. I do that sometimes I dont. Anyway...)

He's so afraid not only for his life but also for the safety of his family as he already said he has seen the ugly side of the state eversince his brother was killed for mistaken identity and they constantly received death threats at the time, which only immediately ceased when they talked to a high ranking military officer, who's name evades me now. (I think he also said his nephew's best friend was killed during the investigation of the still-unsolved case.)

You don't know the man yet?! Whatever.

All I know is that particular individuals want Rodolfo "Jun" Lozada, Jr dead today more than anything. Tough luck luck though to those a**hol*s. Try to touch him or any member of his family and you may as well have dug your own graves where the People of the Philippines will be more than willing to bury you into. We, the Filipino public, may have memory loss (once upon a time but not anymore, I want to believe) are not stupid. WE KNOW WHO YOU ARE. (I just had to mention this because my Mom is quite worried that they may have him killed or harm his family members and all would just be in vain.)

It's good to have a person like Jun at a time like this. And we heard you, Jun, (Yes. Feeling close ako) when you said that it's time that Filipinos realize that the word "Filipino" refers not only to the family but also to the all of us as a nation.

And yes, thank you, Jun, for saying and showing it in you actions that Filipinos are still worthy to risk you life for.

(I just hope that you would say yes if my former Pol Sci Prof. Atty. Bong Lopez were to ask you if we're worth living with. :p I guess the answer would be yes, right?)

Mr. Jun Lozada, your story about what the katutubo said about the fruits of the Guava tree struck me too. Leave the fruits to the birds, s/he said, when you suggested that they sell the fruits to the lowlands, to the markets. Then you said here you are going back to Manila and face these "people" who cannot satisfy their greed despite having MILLIONS of the PEOPLE'S MONEY already. Talk about internal conflict. I also havent given it much thought before but since you are proof, there may be people out there, working with or for the government, who try to limit the greed of certain personalities.

Anyway, Mr. Jun Lozada, just hold on please, and, God willing, we will all see this through. No good deed is done in vain afterall.

By the way, to those who dont really care about the matter and still lives in the Philippines, when will you?

To those who want to oust the current President, let's not go that way again please. Let's investigate and go as far as we can but let's not oust the President. We know she's ungrateful or so she appears appears to be etc but that's another matter for another post perhaps. Well... we cannot oust her unless we can guarantee that even when we do so we are confident enough that our country could widstand such a drastic move and maintain it's climb. Right? We can probably pull it off but not today, Im afraid.

Pagpalian tayong lahat ng Poong Maykapal. May God bless us all.

On Celebating the New Year of the Lunar Calendar and On National politics

2008-02-07T11:42:00.001+08:00

Let me start by greeting you all a Happy New Year especially to the Chinese and Vietnamese who are celebrating their New Year today! (Thanks to sources that can be found at this link.)

Ok. The ranting starts.

The Speaker of the House of Representatives, or should I say, former Speaker Jose de Venecia has already been replaced after having 5 terms under his belt. Tsk tsk. May have stayed there till the end of his days had his son not meddled too actively or spoken too loudly about the whole foul ZTE deal with China.

But then, if his son didn't do what he did, then we, the Filipino tax payers, would have been robbed, again, big time! One point goes to the country's weak opposition! :)

So... Let the biggest egos in the land oust their former leader, who held the 4th highest government position for 5 terms straight, and just show us again how they stage their power play and remind us that indeed "there are no permanent friends or enemies in politics, only permanent interests," which is, sadly, primarily their pork barrel and the projects that they, supposedly, are being given for their people.

Senator Miriam Defensor-Santiago was right when she said they were all just squabbling over their kickbacks! Wahahahahah!

What a farce on national television participated by no less than the honorable Representatives of the land!

My fellow Filipinos, these are the people you put on power every single election?!?!?!?!

Will you admit that you deserve the government you have?

Damn. Im 22 and still the adolescent angst is still here. That's a good thing. Atleast I'm not yet desensitized.

What we, the Filipino tax payers, want is to know that our money is being spent wisely. We don't mind, for now, that we are being robbed as it had been going on since the Philippine government came to be as we know it today.

Please please please, dear politicos, statesmen and women who owe us more than you care to admit, give us our hard-earned money's worth. Dont let this boat sink. Let us all do our part to improve this country, for the sake of our children's future.

We can't afford to let ourselves slip over and over again.

I knew it! It was unintentional!!!

2008-01-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

I knew it! Told you so!

"Police said Ledger probably died sometime between 1 p.m. and 2:45 p.m. on Tuesday of what authorities say may be an accidental drug overdose."

There you go!

Heath Ledger dies at 28

2008-01-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

All the drug abuse/overdose hulabaloo! Give the man some slack. We don't know yet for sure.

Heath Ledger did say he takes two but it only gave him one hour of sleep. Could it be that due to lack of sleep, and better judgment at that time, he accidentally or unmindfully took more than the safe dosage of sleeping pills? Which does make it a case of overdose but then, again, let's give the man some slack and consider what he went through which may have lead him to his death.

He has a two-year-old daughter for goodness sake!

Could the Joker character he portrayed took a heavy toll on him, emotionally and physically?

Bottom line is that he's a loss and it's a shock to know that he's already dead. (Reminded me of our local celebrity, Rico Yan, who may have died of a probably almost similar case.)

May you, Heath Ledger, rest in peace and may God bless you and take care of your daughter.

"Isn't living life to the fullest mean making the most out of what it hands you?"

2008-01-19T15:22:00.000+08:00

And make something to hand yourself and others too!

Now I know why my friend, Ria, loves Gilmore Girls back in college. Watched one episode and it was nice. "Isn't living life to the fullest mean making the most out of what it hands you?" or a line that sounds like that really struck me.

That will stay with me for a long long time........

I had been reading blogs again lately. Been widening my horizon some more. And along the way I felt proud, thankful, curious, sorry, envious, realistic, enlightened and felt like doing some introspection again.

I remembered our Sociology Professor, Pepin Aguilar, at the University of Santo Tomas telling us that we, being students and dependents of our parents that we were, are not the "mayaman" or the one who were rich, but our parents.

(Of course I dont belong to that category because my family's not financially "rich" per se. At that time, she was sharing how her family was ran by their Chinese father who was also a producer of movies.)

I also remembered that realities are different to each of us. More often than not also, most of us have the oportunity to make the most of what we have right now.

During my blog reading never before was I more in touch with what I want and felt like needing to uphold and give utmost importance, the almost forgotten things that I realized at a way younger age.

I still want to be the clan head.

If not the clan head, atleast to lay the foundation for something that would make me immortal.

And what would make the chances of making me immortal more probable than giving some sort of a golden parachute to every single kin for generations to come.

Non-stop booze...

2008-01-19T15:08:00.000+08:00

Been going out atleast once or twice every week since the Christmas holiday.

Been in the Makati Central Busniess district the other night with a female friend for some drinks, just the two of us and a bucket of Red Horse. Didn't dare have another bucket... Im beginning having trouble seeing my navel when at the cubicle.

Been to Malate last night with another female friend and danced all night. I never knew Weng-Weng was great! Never mind the "sipa"! Masarap talaga!

The result: a growing beer belly and breakout everywhere!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Prior this I'd been so health conscious and all that now is down the drain.

Have to reorganize priorities and watch out during supposed Rest Days when Im most tired, but at my happiest.

Now where was that HipHop Abs video again...

I'll miss you 2007. Welcome 2008.

2008-01-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

A lot of pivotal events for me happened last 2007. Many realizations and demons that I never imagined I would face. I've never been braver in facing those so-called issues that were thrown at me, either by other people or myself, than I was recently.

I have no big regrets. The regrets I have are mostly because of other people when they don't give their all and they're dealing with me, dragging me down with them.

Many lessons learned just when I thought I have nothing more to learn and no more reason to grow.

One of the things I learned is that even those people close to you, some of them that is, will judge you, stay blind, and stick to their opinion about you no matter what you do to prove them wrong.

I realized that I don't owe everybody an explanation especially when they're not willing to have an open mind to really understand. Opions matter only when you give them importance. My opinion is one of those that should matter most to myself. Just keep an open mind and be receptive to possibilities.

Found lots of new friends and finally accepted that some are just not willing to become one of those new ones. Kept that elementary school song "Make new friends but keep the old. One is silver and the other is gold" alive.

Like attracts like indeed. Will keep on repelling those that will just wear me out or drag me down.

Although I can almost give all the love in the world, there can sometimes be just enough love to pass around.

I still love books. And will continue to read them. I never thought I'll be experiencing some sort of "reading withdrawal" symptom when I dont have something to read. Hahahahah!

I miss the atmosphere of the academe. I'm still pondering on how I can be an active member of the University circle without becoming a student again or being one of the faculty. But, as they say, teaching is learning twice.

People change. Some people change fast while some change slowly. Some people change for the better while some change for the worst.

I changed fast for the better last year.

I already miss 2007...

I bought my own land. Hah! Unlike most Filipinos who grew up here in the Philippine culture center and seat of power, Manila, I always dreamed of having my own house and lot before I imagined having my own car. Now I have 4 hectares of land in the province of Isabela that already has some mango trees and a new fishpond to raise Tilapia. I do hope that the land remains mine as I still have to pay for the balance. Im on my way to financial security and freedon from the ladder of the corporate world. Well, I'm a technical support representative in a call center so I may not be "technically" in a corporate rat race but there's still rat race.

2008 will be a lucky year for those who were born under the year of the Ox. Im looking forward to more great things and events this year!

May kinalaman umano ang Hukbong Sandatahan ng Pilipinas sa mga pagpatay ayon sa UN.

2007-12-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

Tinagalog ko kasi sobrang nakakahiya lalo sa buong mundo kung i-inglisin ko pa. As if naman malaki ang posibilidad na may magbabasa nitong post na to. Hahahahahah!

What is our government turning into more than two decades after Martial Law? Will our armed forces continue to hunt down these civilians who are also supposed enemies of the powers that be?
Binago ko rin ang kulay ng nakasulat na pangungusap bago at pagkatapos nito para nawa'y di mabasa ng mga banyaga.

Nakakalungkot... Our four generations in the AFP... Atleast hindi naman buong organisasyon ang may kinalaman.

I just hope that the seige of the Manila Peninsula hotel will not overshadow the statement made by the UN representative about these extrajudicial killings.

Advance Merry Christmas to all!!!

Well... who knows... maybe the real Christmas Day is now.

That's it. Oprah Winfrey's campaigning for Barack Obama.

2007-12-09T18:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not a citizen of the USA but whoever wins the US presidency would still inevitably have an impact on world politics, Asia, the Philippines, thus, affecting me.

If I were to vote in the US, I would go for Obama not only because Oprah campaigning for him but also because he represents something that is more or less out of the traditional politician that Clinton's husband used to be, according to what I've read atleast.

I hope there would be a time when someone who is not only popular but also of outstanding character would campaign for a candidate of his/her choice here in the Philippines.

Argh. If there would only be someone who is familiar with US politics that I can have a chat with in person.

Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini

2007-11-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

This is not a review.

This is a recommendation to read the book "The Kite Runner" so you may remotely feel, regardless of the book being fiction, how lives can be changed by decisions we make at the tender age of 12.

Neither am I a high-brow book reviewer, nor am I a university professor with PHDs and whatnot. I am, however, a well-read, 22-year old who happened to appreciate a book along with millions of other people. (Bandwagon? Not! I hate the bandwagon effect.)

Just buy/borrow one and lets see if you wouldn't like it as well.

Have a bite and savor every evanescent morsel of this blink of infinity. In short: Mabuhay! Wahahahahahah! Love life and live it

2007-11-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

"Have a bite and savor every evanescent morsel of this blink of infinity. In short: Mabuhay! Wahahahahahah! Love life and live it!"

"Like Attracts Like, Subliminally and Inevitably."

"Relearn not to be quick to judge people's motives. Behind their blunders may be good intentions. You do the same, remember?"

"A very satisfied person has a healthy supply of Security, RESPONSE, Recognition, and New Experience"

"Rediscovered my sunshine and people who make me feel I matter!"

Those above are IM handles I've placed on my Instant Messenger these past weeks. Havent stopped introspecting. Never stopped thinking about things.

Almost Unbelievable First Times in an Unbelievable Span of Time!

2007-09-25T07:35:00.001+08:00

Too many things have happened since my 22nd Birthday.

I'll be in lazy mode and enumerate:
1. Shopped for bodyfit-type clothes I've never thought I'll ever buy and wear.
2. Went to the gym.
3. Colored my hair light brown when it was 5 years ago when I colored my hair blonde.
4. Joined the Cheerdance Team for SYKES Asia Manila One and won along with great people.
5. Went to Baguio after deciding within 2 minutes. Stayed there for 1.5 days and went back to Manila straight to work.
6. Had my first facial. It was more painful than I imagined.
7. Got drunk with hard drinks for the first time. (I easily get tipsy with beer but never, er, almost impossible with hard drinks.)
8. Bought a teddy bear for a girl that I'm not even courting. Seeing her happy was more than enough to make my day.
9. Rendering daily over times as preparation for a long term financial investment by the end of 2007.

I've been wanting to blog more about the aforementioned but never had the time or the motivation to do so. Perhaps I will someday.

Unforgivable Breach of Trust, Almost

2007-06-15T03:37:00.000+08:00

A mother of two met a young boy of eleven in front of the local Mercury Drug store.
The boy is all scrawny and looks like a hobo. The mother took pity and was planning to take the boy home. Other people who saw him are also interested in taking him home, to give him a nice home perhaps or atleast to give him some decent meal.
The boy went along with the mother. The mother bathed the boy, changed his clothes and fed him. The mother learned he's the third child among nine children. His father is a tricycle driver while his mother stays at home. His eldest brother, according to the boy, is living with some friends while the rest are out of school except for two siblings. This particular boy had been accustomed to running away from home as, according to him, his mother would reprimand them for the smallest mistakes. The mother of two told him that it's normal for mothers to scold their children for the mistakes that they make.

As the day passed by, the mother is beginning to make up her mind on adopting this boy. She thought about helping him continue his education aside from giving him a better shot at life. She even told her two sons about it that evening. They talked about it and they considered going to DSWD first or perhaps try talking to the boy's parents first. They do deserve to know their child's condition after all.

The next morning the mother of two sent the child to his parents, or atleast to the boy's neighbor as he doesn’t even want to see his family. The mother of two gave him some money and spaghetti.

The mother was really wasn’t expecting the boy to return. She also wanted the boy to decide on his own whether he really wanted to leave their home, or go back and stay for good.

The boy came back before noon.

They ate lunch together with the mother's elder son as the younger went to school. He's on his second day in college. The mother cut his elder son's hair for he had let it grow for some months already and he doesn’t really trust too many people to touch his hair.

They all had their siesta.

The mother woke up later that afternoon. She noticed that the boy is missing. And not only that, as well as his younger son's cellphone, cellphone charger, and MP4 player.

The mother, his younger son that came home that afternoon and their close relative searched the neighborhood. The mother talked to the security guard in Mercury Drug where she met the boy and told him what had happened. The guard said several possibilities like the boy may be a member of a syndicate.

The elder brother woke up that evening to learn about what happened. The elder brother knew by then that his mother was broken-hearted with the breach of trust. The two brothers can't help but blame themselves also for letting themselves trust too fast, too early. The younger brother was wondering why the syndicate issue didn't even occur to him as he is aware of it.

The mother was wondering though why the boy took her son's cellphone instead of hers when both are on the center table. She was thinking that perhaps the boy atleast considered what she did for him. The elder son thought that maybe because those are the "in" things today, a camera phone with its charger and an MP4 player.

Had the boy stayed, the family thought, he may have had a better life and a chance perhaps to finish his studies. The mother even asked the boy in front of his elder son if he would consider, if it would be possible, taking Lumayna, the mother's maiden name, as his last name someday.

Your humble blogger can almost shed a tear right now at the thought of what had happened. Yourkidatheart would turn back time if he can and would do all to prevent his mother from going through the pain that that boy had given his mother.

Hey! Check this out! My very own celebrity look-alikes?!

2007-06-09T13:36:00.000+08:00

http://www.myheritage.com

This part 2 is very flattering indeed.

I wish I knew this site earlier. hehe. ^_^ Thanks bro!

I'm at Another Crossroads

2007-06-01T09:13:00.000+08:00

I'm in another pivotal moment in my life where things aren't as settled as they were. It's like graduating in college. You know where you want to be but you're not sure if fate will let you get there no matter how much you wanted to.

Dont leave a good party just because you think you'll have a better time in another.--- Well, I'm not enjoying this party anymore, if ever it was in the first place, and I've seriously decided to leave it no matter what.

I'm willing to leave all that I cannot bring with me, at this very moment if I'm given the assurance that I'll end up where I want to go to. This place where I am now used to be much but now it just demished itself to hardly anything at all.

I've learned a thing or two though and those are the priceless tidbits of experience I'll carry with me. If I can just carry all the friends I have made with me.

Brent... I'm crossing my fingers for you and I'm praying that you get your target.

Feels Like School Days' Back!

2007-05-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

It rained before I woke up that evening and I cant help but reminisce about the good old days when I used to go to school...

("Good old days" myself. It was just last year!)

Hay... I was actually... smelling the air that night and remembered the good and the bad of going to and being in UST during the rainy season. Heheheh. Anybody who was in España after a not-so-heavy rain will understand where I'm coming from.

But thoughts of flood aside, I just love the trees and plants around the botanical garden when they have those droplets on them...

Aw... Now I suddenly remembered those two animes that I used to watch in ANIMAX: Get Backers and Chobits. They both have good rain scenes. Rain sometimes make people happy. (Now where did that last sentence came from?! I feel like a schizo editing his own work along the way)

Hay... got to go and sleep... work tonight... :D

My First God-Daughter

2007-05-23T14:44:00.000+08:00

I was so excited when I was made the God-father of Nina's first child.

And talk about short notice... Evening prior the birthday party, I thought that I was just there with Ria in Megamall to buy a gift for her God-daughter when I received Nina's text with the word "ninong" in it.

Anyway... I was a wonderful experience all in all. I wasnt able to attend Mass for quite some time already and that was my chance to attend again. Malate church is beautiful. With stained glass and all. I just imagined that time how my parents and ninong and ninangs felt that morning at the San Roque parish church 21 years ago when I was Christened too... hay... OMG... I'm about to turn 22 by July... (Ria if you read this, I would like you to know that I'm doing my countdown again. Hahahahahah!)

Shrek 3!!!

2007-05-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

Whew! Atlast!
An intelligent movie that makes people laugh because they realize that Pinoccio can also be politically correct, thus, not being able to technically lie and make his nose grow!!!

An intelligent audience watching a good movie! :)

It's been a while since I last watched a funny cartoon... last funny movie was Ang Cute ng Ina mo. Feel good movies make me shed tears of joy. :P

Pirates and Potter next!

Yehey! My Blogger Account is STILL alive!!!

2007-05-03T07:57:00.000+08:00

Just when I can happily login back to my blogger, it seems like a g(oogle)iant wanted to take over with my old settings.

Anyway, I'm just happy that my account is still alive and sort of active. :)

2007-01-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

I must be one of the proudest kuyas alive at this very moment.

Daddy just bought a Casio electric organ for my younger brother's music project. They're supposed to play one of High School Musical's song and bro's the leader.

And minutes ago, just after around an hour with it, he can play Canon.

I mean, I was saying something like, "Ows. Naka ano yan e," when he showed me what he was doing. But when he shook his head and lift both his hands and the music stoped, I think my jaw dropped. He can actually play!

I'm very proud of him.

He's the personification of my frustration when it comes to playing the piano. I remember when, more than a decade ago, I was a very small kid and I've wished for having an electric organ. It never happened when I was a child. I told my brother that too. And now, that my interest for playing the piano have wanned considerably, I'm very happy that we now have an electric organ, more so because my brother can play music with it!

I guess it's time that I rediscover my interest for learning how to play the organ. *sigh...*

This feels really good... I even blogged about it.

: )

Good night to you all!

2007-01-07T08:55:00.000+08:00

Yey! My Blog's still active! My blog account still hasn't forsaken me after months of inactivity. :D
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Happy Three Kings to all!

^_^

2006-10-16T09:42:00.000+08:00

It's "Link" by L'arc En Ciel. (Connect the dots and you'll realize it means rainbow.)
And about the video... well, need I say more?

2006-09-08T08:57:00.000+08:00

May you rest in peace, Steve Irwin.

He died, at age 44, doing the career he loves doing best!

As my brother had said, he had the option to knock off the stingray's sting. But, and this I thought, considering the crocodile hunter's character, he may want to chew off his own arm than do that.

My brother said that he was actually trying to remove the sting, with the stingray still connected to it.

I always thought that he pushes his luck a bit too far. But, I believe, what happened this time was really an accident as an Australian online news explained.

Again, may you rest in peace, mate!

2006-09-08T08:31:00.000+08:00

Thank You God! My blog is still working!

^_^